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Assalamualaikum w.b.t. Pernahkah anda mendengar, atau anda sendiri mengatakan: "Tak pakai tudung (hijab) pun tak apa. Tak semestinya semua orang yang pakai tudung itu baik." Pernahkah anda mendengar, atau anda sendiri mengatakan: "Pakai tudung memang tak semestinya baik, tapi yang tak pakai tudung sah-sah masuk neraka." (Macam tak betul sikit, tapi lebih kurang, insyaAllah) Jadi, sebenarnya, situasi agak janggal sebab semua berbalah. Yang cakap begitu, tetap begitu. Yang cakap begini, tetap begini. "Dan sesungguhnya Kami telah mengulang-ulangi bagi manusia dalam al-Quran ini bermacam-macam perumpamaan. Dan manusia adalah makhluk yang paling banyak membantah. " (Al-Kahfi: 54) Pernah berjumpa yang berniqab. Pernah berjumpa yang bertudung labuh. Pernah berjumpa yang bertudung biasa. Pernah berjumpa yang tidak bertudung. Pernah berjumpa yang menutup aurat sepenuhnya, setiap masa. Pernah berjumpa yang menutup aurat, tidak setiap masa. Pernah...

Assalamualaikum w.b.t. I'm home. Since the day before yesterday. Before I had the chance to be back in Shah Alam, I had to make sure few things: The "Forum: When The Heart Whispers" paperwork have all the signs it needed. All the stuffs in the box of ENGENIUS be sorted out. All my stuffs every where in KC124 be sorted out. So I started with the box of ENGENIUS. The box that had been passed through from secretary to another secretary throughout the years. Can you believe how old those papers in the box are? I hereby give you one proof:   The forms were only available during the time Centre for Foundation Study (CFS) was called Matriculation Centre and it was years ago. Ancient. So it was another night at mahallah and I started after Isya'. I stopped at 30 minutes after 1. Most of the papers were neatly arranged in two different boxes. I just love to do things like that -- cleaning up, arranging things and put it in somewhere easy to find. Event...

Assalamualaikum w.b.t. I asked, and someone replied: "It is all right for a woman to travel alone, but it is afraid that fitnah would occur." I travelled to my kampung (village) on Saturday and back to CFS. I travelled to Masjid Jamek on Sunday and back to CFS. Here is the log. Saturday. I woke up around 5 a.m and planned my day. I was suppose to depart at 7 as my older sisters' train from Perlis would arrive by then. But I was stalled by something. I logged in to my Skype account that morning with an intention of deleting it. Because I still have brothers in my Skype account though I barely chat with any of them. So I thought it would be pointless for me to have an account, but that morning; I received many late messages. I had realised that the WiFi connection here in CFS is not as good as usual, and sometimes it limits the connection. But I hadn't realised it would be that bad. I received messages from days before. I created my Skype acco...

Assalamualaikum w.b.t. So my mind was triggered by my friend, Kee, when she said: "I don't understand why bloggers write things. Is it because they want people to read it, or not?" (by "not" she meant blogs as diaries) Not to mention the statement my friend Fatihah gave me: "I've read your blog." I hear, I think and I reply, with a post in my blog. REASONS WHY PEOPLE SHOULD NOT HAVE A BLOG. Reason number ONE. Because people don't exactly love to write on pieces of papers or diaries any more. They tend to have this amazing experiences and want to tell others (or just keep it to themselves) about it but just because nowadays writing isn't exactly a common hobby for any one, any where, they forgot those things and let it be. Let gone be by gone . Stop it right there, those are your memories, why shouldn't you have a copy of it anywhere besides in your own brain and you will somehow, forget about it eventually. So I suggest...

Assalamualaikum w.b.t. Selawat dan salam ke atas junjungan, Nabi Muhammad s.a.w. Semalam, diizinkan Allah, terfikir dan dikuatkan hati untuk bertanya kepada seorang yang ku gelar "Hamlatul Quran". Dia adalah kenalanku di CFS, seorang hafiz dan menjadi imam di sini semasa Ramadhan, subhanallah. Jarang sekali kami berhubung malah kalau berjumpa sepatah pun tidak akan kami katakan jika tiada apa-apa yang penting. Hanya kerana urusan persatuan, kami 'terpaksa' berhubung. Mesej pun masih boleh dikira dengan jari dan kesemuanya, insyaAllah penting. Jadi semalam, mesej dimulakan dengan ayat, "Salam. Maaf ganggu. Ana ada soalan, dan ana tegaskan di sini ana memang tak ada tempat lain nak nak tanya." Dan soalan pun diajukan. Apabila dia menjawab, diri mengambil peluang bertanya lagi. (alang-alang dah bertanya dan dia tidak sibuk) Salah satunya: "Boleh ke belajar kitab agama dan kitab syarahnya tanpa guru?" Dan dia menjawab, "Kalau nak bel...

Assalamualaikum w.b.t. Update 16/5/2013: http://umairahazwani.blogspot.com/2013/05/wirid-yang-dinanti.html Ingin ku katakan, apa yang bakal ku sebutkan hanya pendapat semata-mata. Dan Allah Maha Mengetahui segala sesuatu. Beberapa hari yang lepas, terlihatlah sebuah buku bertajuk, Majmu' Syarif. Pertama kali ku lihat dan tidak pernah ku ketahui sebelum ini. Jadi, diri memutuskan untuk melihat dan mempelajari apa yang di dalamnya. Buku yang ku baca itu terjemahan Melayu. Sedangkan kitab yang asal, tiada nama penulisnya. Dibahagikan kepada 30 bab, dimulakan dengan Fadhilat Surah Pilihan dan disusuli dengan pelbagai doa. Pada 10 bab pertama yang menerangkan fadhilat surah-surah, tidak merasakan apa-apa yang pelik di situ lalu diteruskan pembacaan dan sekali gus cubaan menghafal isi-isinya. Sehinggalah kepada bab yang menerangkan fadhilat doa. Kerana terdapat 20 bab yang selebihnya dipenuhi dengan doa, hanya 5 bab pertama saja yang dibaca. Kerana pernah ku baca,...

Assalamualaikum w.b.t. I skipped, my last class. Because of sickness. I hadn't skip any before, even though I did felt sick sometimes, I came. But today, I can't even leave my bed. I tried to make the pain goes away with sleeping. And the pills untouched on the top of the table. I'm getting a little bit of emotional today, as this pain reminded me of my past. Everything that happened, when I was still a student at SMKAM2. Certainly, I doesn't miss everything and there were some regrets here and there. However, I just realise that, I had chose the wrong way to live. Would you listen? I miss the class of 3 Cahaya, 4 Bakti and 5 Bakti. I miss Mrs Hasimazera, who was the one who believed in me to get 9A, Mrs Salina, who was the one who convinced me I deserved my 9A, Mrs Asma, whom listened to me, my stories, those are my class teachers. I miss the other teachers that taught me or didn't. You can never be replace with lecturers. I miss Nur Aisy...

Assalamualaikum w.b.t. Pagi tadi di kelas, ber"bahas" tentang nama. Husna: Kenapa guna Umairah? Kan tak ada makna. UH: Ada sejarahnya. *senyum* Inani tahu kan? Inani: Apa ya? Saya dah tak ingat. UH: Inani tak ingat? *sedih* Aini: Kenapa tak Amirah, kan maksudnya ratu. UH: Bukan ratu tapi puteri. Huhu. Aini: Ya la, tapi kan elok ada maksud. UH: Tapi kita lagi suka orang panggil Hazwani. Aini: *senyum* Siapa ya yang panggil awak "Wani"? Terhenti dengan ketibaan Miss Rahimah binti Abdullah. Kelas pun bermula. Kalau mengikut perancangan, hari ini hari terakhir kelas. Jadi diri pun memutuskan untuk meminjam kamera Kee dengan niat mengambil gambar kelas. Walaupun lebih menyayangi G190 daripada S1, S1 tetap signifikan dengan teletah mereka sendiri. InsyaAllah, semester depan untuk G194, sama senyapnya dengan G190 dan dah tak meriah macam S1. Note: G stands for group and S stands for Section. Miss Rahimah menempah satu kotak blueberry cheese t...