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Pertama VI.

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Assalamualaikum w.b.t. Video PERTAMA VI yang pertama sekali ana tengok: Video PERTAMA VI yang paling ana suka: Video PERTAMA VI yang paling ana terkesan: Yang pertama, ana tak nak ulas. Yang kedua, ana cemburu dengan kefasihan bahasa Arab anak kecil itu. Yang ketiga, muhasabah diri bagi ana. Niat di hati nak menulis travel log. Sudah beberapa travel log ana tidak menulis. Bukan tidak ada masa, bukan tidak mahu. Tapi, mungkin terlampau banyak dan kebanyakan ana berjalan seorang diri. Rasanya tak ada yang nak baca cerita ana berjalan seorang diri kan? C: Untuk yang ketiga itu ana terkesan kerana senario itu berlaku pada ana dan sahabat ana. Mungkin ramai yang tahu ana berdua saja di dalam KC939. Ana, dan Izzati. Ramai juga yang tahu, ana suka memuji diri sendiri comel :D Tapi, Izzati lagi lah comel. Cuma ana tak pernah cakap saja, sebab kami jarang jumpa. Ana sibuk dengan mesyuarat, sibuk dengan laptop, sibuk dengan travel log. An

Jatuh.

Assalamualaikum w.b.t. Dengan nama Allah yang Maha Pengasih lagi Maha Penyayang, Selawat dan salam ke atas junjunganku, Rasulku, Nabi Muhammad s.a.w Hasil karya Umairah Hawani, JATUH. Ahlam mengesat bibirnya. Tangannya bergetar. Dia tidak sanggup melihat, pandangannya berpinar. Sekali lagi petang itu dia sendiri di bilik. Satu-satunya rakan sebilik sudah ke kelas. Ahlam merebahkan badan di atas katil. Dia membiarkan tangannya yang sebentar tadi bersih tanpa kotoran, kini berbekas merah. Ahlam memejamkan mata. Tidak dihiraukan kesakitan. Dia berniat untuk berehat seketika. Ahlam terjaga dari lelapnya. Kedengaran samar-samar suara membaca ayat-ayat suci al-Quran. Ahlam duduk di penjuru katil sambil menyandarkan badan. Suara itu dari bilik sebelah. Dia memerhati tangannya lalu mengambil kain dan membersihkan bekas darah. Ahlam memejamkan mata. Dia mendengar dengan penuh tekun. Hatinya senang mendengar bacaan itu. ***** “Nak tasmi' ke nak ingat?” Ahlam mengangkat

Deviate,

Assalamualaikum w.b.t. What should I say, if I could say. Writings, write things, are very subjective. Perhaps, perhaps. For this post, particularly, I was perplexed. What should I write, now that I could. I could write a story, I know. I could write a story and then people will take note, I know. But, this time, this moment. This is me. From Amirah Hazwani to you. To whom, who have choices and need to choose. For a moment now, let us thank Allah truly and gratefully. We still have choices, and yet we are spending time after time to choose. I had chosen before. I had been chosen before. One of those choices were IIUM and Automotive Engineering. Why these two? Because those choices determine my future. Not that I would say that it is entirely depends on my choices, but a tiny percentage of it, yes. The rest, it is up to Allahu Rabbi. I was excited, really. IIUM is, well, International - Islamic - University - Malaysia. And automotive, well... It is my dream. It

Love letter,

Assalamualaikum w.b.t. This one, is for my family, teachers, and friends. To ami and abah, how could I express my apologize? For everything that I made that might hurt each of you. For the times I thought, I was alone but both of you are still there. Raising me up, to more than I can be. To Kika, Anith, Syahmi and Danish, how could I express my love? When people stared because of my niqab, you guys walked besides me. Trusted me for my choice. And you never complaint. How could I ask for more? To Acik, Dania, Danial, Adriana and Akif, it was hard to accept at first. But then, you are my family. I never thought I would have a huge family as I do now. And yes, I would never can thank you much. To Mak, what can I say? Mak dah besarkan Kira. You where there, everytime, everywhere. Siapa ambil Kira punya report card? Siapa masak untuk Kira? Siapa teman Kira pergi sekolah? Who else knows what I like and what I don't like?

Nur Cahaya,

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Assalamualaikum w.b.t. Dengan nama Allah Yang Maha Pengasih lagi Maha Penyayang. Selawat dan salam ke atas junjungan Rasulullah Sallallahua'laihiwassalam. Hasil karya, Amirah Hazwani. Cahaya. “Cantiknya matahari hari ini,” suaranya girang menyatakan pendapat. “Subhanallah, Maha Suci Allah yang menciptakan langit dan bumi,” sambungnya lagi. Dia berlari-lari anak menyusuri taman di sebelah kolej. Kelas yang bermula seawal 8 pagi baru sahaja tamat sebentar tadi. Perutnya berbunyi memberi isyarat minta diisi. Tangan kanannya diletakkan di atas perut. “Sabar ya, kejap saja lagi,” dia bermonolog sendiri. “Nur.” Dia memalingkan muka apabila namanya disebut. Kelihatan Aisyah sedang berjalan mendekati dirinya. Dia hanya memerhati Aisyah yang kelihatan tercungap-cungap. “Cepatnya kau jalan,” kata Aisyah. Dia berhenti di hadapan Nur dan duduk di kerusi berdekatan untuk berehat. Nur menghadiahkan sebuah senyuman kepada rakan baiknya itu. “Kenapa kau s

When I need you,

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Assalamualaikum w.b.t. The lyrics of With You; by Raef. " Allah. i need Allah ." When the hearts all over the world tonight, said the hearts all over the world tonight. "What can I do? i need Allah ." when the hearts all over the world tonight, said the hearts all over the world tonight. wish I was smatter,  when i was younger. felt something better,  make me a winner and, i'm so glad to be Yours. it's my life that you own... and i start my journey, when You forgive me. i swear my whole world stops. You are in my heart and I'm so glad, that is fine. You are One truly kind... and You lighten me. feel it through and through and for sure my Rabbi , there ain't nothing You can't do. Because if i got You , i don't need money, i don't need cars, Lord , You 're my all. Oh, i am into You my Lord . no one else would do. with every test you put me through, th

The written conflicts.

Assalamualaikum w.b.t. From this: “I could hear your voice from the other block.” “Your voice had paused a lesson in a Form 6 classroom.” “You should act no longer, give other people chance.” “Okay, I'll be the director then.” To this: “Could you try to talk more... make conversations more?” “I don't think so. I tried. Believe me.” Khair, I've been different lately. I am in this condition, called self-conflict. To make it easier it might be called the disease of the heart, not literally of course. I could not believe how the environment could actually effect one person so much that it includes the personality, the beliefs and everything. The easiest example would be me. Because I know myself and I don't want to talk about  others. I was raised by my grandmother, because my parents are busy all the time that I remembered one day when I was a lot younger and had a very bad fever and they have to go to work and left the three o

Kerana ini.

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Assalamualaikum w.b.t. Apabila ada yang bertanya, "Kenapa awak pergi talaqqi?" Kebelakangan ini, sedikit sibuk. Lirik di atas, "Betapa untungnya kita, diutus yang teristimewa ." Pengubat hati, mengulit rindu. Dekat tapi jauh, tidak pernah berjumpa namun hampir. Macam mana ana nak ungkapkan? Bagaimana untuk ana menulis? "Lau Kana Bainana, maza taf'al?" Bila baca surah yang diberikan nama Rasul-Rasul terdahulu, tertanya-tanya. Kenapa kita tak dihidupkan pada zaman itu? Rasul ada depan mata. Mukjizat depan mata. Dan kemudiannya teringat. Betapa beruntungnya kita dipilih menjadi ummat Nabi Muhammad s.a.w. Betapa beruntungnya kita menjadi umat akhir zaman. Kerana apa? Kerana Allah s.w.t memilih kita untuk kekasihNya. Memilih kita untuk mendapat syafaat kekasihNya. Kerana Allah s.w.t, memilih kita, menjadi seorang Muslim, pada zaman ini. Lihat sekeliling, betapa ramai yang bukan Muslim. Lihat sekeliling, betapa ramai ya