Saturday, December 29, 2012

Ada apa, dengan cinta?

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim.
Assalamualaikum warahmatullahi wabarakatuh.


Penat.
Kesedihanku semakin melarat.
Rindu yang semakin memberat,
hati bagaikan di siat-siat.

ALLAHu rabbi.


Kau masih tersenyum mengubat lara,
selindung derita yang kau rasa.
Senyuman yang mententeramkan,
setiap insan yang kebimbangan.

Hakikatnya, tak tertanggung lagi derita,
di pangkuan isterimu Humaira.
Menunggu saat ketikanya,
diangkat rohmu bertemu Yang Esa.

Tangan dicelup di bejana air,
kau sapu di muka mengurangkan pedih.
Beralun zikir menutur kasih,
pada umat dan akhirat.

Dan tibalah waktu ajal bertamu,
penuh ketenangan jiwamu berlalu.
Linangan air mata syahdu,
iringi pemergianmu.

Oh sukarnya untuk umat menerima,
bahkan payah untuk Umar mempercaya.
Tetapi iman merelakan jua,
bahawa manusia kan mati akhirnya.

Tak terlafaz kata mengungkap hiba,
gerhanalah seluruh semesta.
Walaupun kau telah tiada,
bersemarak cintamu selamanya.

Ya RasulALLAH,
kau tinggalkan kami warisan yang abadi.
Dan bersaksilah sesungguhnya,
Kami merinduimu.



*****

Berkali diketuk pintu hatiku,
ditanya adakah peluang untuk bertamu.
Berkali ku katakan sabarlah menunggu,
masih tidak tetap pendirianku.

Tidakkah ada yang memahami kalamku itu?
Tidak mungkin, akan ku mencintai sesiapa melebihi DIA Tuhan Yang Esa.
Tidak mungkin, akan ku merindui sesiapa melebihi dia rasul junjungan.

Tidakkah ada yang memahami?



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Keputusan dibuat, akhirnya kusenaraikan.
Si dia begini dan begitu.
Yang lain begini dan begitu.
Ku hantarkan pada Malaysia. Wakil dan wali.

Terserahlah, yang mana.
Penat.

ALLAHua'lam.



Friday, December 28, 2012

Akan ku terus, menunggu.

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim.
Assalamualaikum warahmatullahi wabarakatuh.

Biarkan aku terus di pintu-Mu,
hingga Engkau berkenan menerimaku.
Biarkan aku berdiri kaku,
hingga Engkau tiba padaku.

(Syair Imamul Haddad)


Thursday, December 27, 2012

Lighten the soul.

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim.
Assalamualaikum warahmatullahi wabarakatuh.

Selawat Habib Ahmad Mahsyu Thoha alHaddad

I just don't care what people said,
I don't want to hear any more complaints.

Arabs are Arabs.

For three months being here in Cairo, I have less than few minor disturbance.
Other than that, I was relatively amazed of the akhlaq of Arabs around me.

Simple example, earlier this morning I went to Suq Tsamin along with one of my ahli bait.
To cut it short, we went to BKAN Terengganu first before the suq.
When I was in the bus, I just realized that, I lost my 200LE.

It is equal to RM100.

I was stunned.

I know it was my fault as I put it recklessly in my pocket.
It can easily slipped out when I pull my purse out of it.

I was... really stunned.

For a few seconds I was thinking of million ways to save money to pay back, as the 200LE was for households items. Suddenly, someone poked me.

And the conductor stood besides me.
Almost everyone in the bus stared.

The women, a Nigerian if I'm not mistaken, handed me 200LE.

I was... too grateful to say anything less than ALHAMDULILLAH and Syukran jiddan a thousand times if I could.

She, or anyone in the bus could simply took it.
But she, and everyone chose to let it be and gave it back to me.

I was really grateful to ALLAH.
Because whatever had people did to make me stop walking alone at nights to go to talaqqi,
whatever people had said to me regarding my own safety,
HE always be there for me.

HE always sent me the best of his creations around me.
And I know that I love HIM dearly, and try to be a better Muslim.
Not for me, not for people around me, but just simply for HIM.

For HE had created me with love, I am walking back to HIM with love also.

ALLAHua'lam.

p.s: Quotes of the days;

By Ustazah Halimah Alaydrus:


ALLAH SWT tidak pernah mengecewakanmu, kamu sebenarnya selama ini dikecewakan oleh harapan, keinginan dan angan-anganmu sendiri. 
Jika jauh dari kekasih adalah sebuah penderitaan bagaimana dengan jauh dari pencipta kekasih? Sungguh. Ia sejatinya adalah sumber derita.  
Kepadamu yang sedang gundah, jangan kau ucap "Ya ALLAH, deritaku begitu besar." Tapi ucapkanlah "Wahai derita, bersamaku ada ALLAH yang Maha Besar."