Friday, November 1, 2013

Hitam.

BismiLLAHirrahmirrahim.
Assalamualaikum warahmatuLLAHi wabarakatuh.

Berapa bulan menyepi.
Aku hanya melihat perubahan alam ini.
Sahabat aku berubah.
Persekitaran aku berubah.
Keadaan aku berubah.

Aku sendiri, sudah berubah.

"Sesungguhnya orang yang takut (melanggar hukum) TUHANnya semasa mereka tidak dilihat orang dan semasa mereka tidak melihat azab TUHAN, mereka beroleh keampunan dan pahala yang besar." 67:12

Aku berjalan ke majlis hari Jumaat.

Perhatian ditumpukan sedikit kepada kasut yang sudah berlubang di hadapan.
Berfikir pula tentang sepasang lagi yang sudah haus dan berlubang di bahagian bawah yang berada di rumah.

Berkira-kira mahu membuang keduanya dan membeli yang baru.

Ketika itu aku dipertemukan,
dua kanak-kanak kecil keluar dari imarah (bangunan) mereka.

Aku memperhatikan pakaian mereka dan tahulah aku bahawa mereka bukan dari keluarga yang senang mahupun sederhana.

Pandangan jatuh kepada kasut yang dipakai.

Aduhai, selipar itu lebih besar dari kakinya!

Tahulah aku bahawa kemungkinan itu milik ibu, mahupun bapanya.

Malu; sungguh aku malu.
Kasut bertukar setiap kali, sedangkan ada yang memakai apa yang dipunya.

Berjalan terus aku ke sana.
Jalan yang sama, orang yang sama.

Atas takdir ALLAH, semasa aku menunggu pengangkutan awam,
dihadapanku ada beberapa pekerja awam membersihkan jalan.

Apa yang membuat aku terkedu?

Duhai nafsu,
mereka tersenyum mengangkat sampah itu!
Dengan tangan mereka, dengan tenaga mereka.

Aku malu, sungguh aku malu.

Sedikit sahaja kelas berlanjutan, aku sudah tertekan.
Apakah memang aku sentiasa dalam kelalaian?

Aku malu.

Betapa hina.

Tiada apa yang aku miliki.
Di dunia mahupun akhirat sana.

ALLAHua'lam.

Tuesday, September 24, 2013

Travel log 16: Sneak peek IIUM Gombak!

Last travel log posted: 6th February 2013

BismiLLAHirrahmanirrahim.
Assalamualaikum warahmatuLLAHi wabarakatuh.

I was like a rusty nail.

Waking up on a Sunday morning, I tried to be... good.
I had plans on my mind.

Will leave the house insyaALLAH around 12,
heading to USJ 1,
then to Gombak.

Specifically - I was heading to Madrasah at-Tazkiah.
For the first time, after I was evacuated.

Ahha, that's it. The big news I suppose.
I was evacuated by my government from sweet home Egypt.
First chartered flight I was thrown into.
AlhamduLILLAH, bit by bit I see the reasons.

I was trembling last week, when I gave my first visit to Madrasah at-Tazkiah.
But the students told me that there was no class.

So I came back this week, more relaxed.
p.s: Ami dropped me off.

The venue had changed.
From Surau as-Syafie to the cabin inside the Madrasah's territory itself.

I heard a familiar voice.
I thought it was al-Habib Ali.
But I was wrong indeed.
It was al-Habib Najmuddin.

It was a total embarrassment, to actually forget... your teachers voices.

But there's nothing I can change.
So I sat until the class ended.

I looked around and saw many, many, unfamiliar faces.
Some of them, whom I know.
But I chose to keep silent... and walked away for now.
I wasn't ready.
I am not ready.

To suddenly 'gain' everything back again.
All the memories and such.

I took one of the hardest step ever out of the Madrasah,
and walked towards the nearest bus station - 8 minutes away by foot.
The scenery was different.

Not that it had changed from the way it used to be, no.
It just that I am not used to 'greenery' any more.

The first bus won't stop, so I waited.
I realised that I had lost; my ability to wait.
So I tried to take a cab.
But - it wasn't working.
No one will ever stop for me.

The second bus arrived, alhamduLILLAH, thus I jumped in.
Then I changed to another to make my way to KL Central.
I almost missed it because of the building that was still in construction when I left Malaysia... had turned out to be - almost ready to open.

Heading to the Central, bought an Ice Lemon Tea and just before I went to the LRT station -- I  realized that I had dropped my Touch n Go card so I had to check the store back. AlhamduLILLAH, it was there.

Confused for a while,
I had to read the destinations clearly before I decided where is the correct platform I should go to.

Hopped into the LRT heading to Gombak, I sat quietly.

I didn't touch my Ice Lemon Tea because there was a "No Eating or Drinking" sign along with the "RM500 fine" penalty.

Texted Aini, informing her that I'm on my way.
Then I arrived at the Gombak station finally.

And here is, one short story.

I was quite starving, so I decided to buy some fruits from the stall located there.
I knew that I want the papaya.

I stared to the seller, and said: (in Malay)

"Nak tembikai dua."


My index finger was pointing to the papaya though.


So when he took a red-coloured fruit and put it into a plastic bag, I was perplexed.

Why had he took the watermelon instead?

At that point, I realized that... It was my fault.

'Tembikai' is equal to watermelon.
While papaya... is 'betik'.

I was too embarrassed to change it,

so I just pay for it.

Then, into another bus I go and IIUM Gombak is in front of me just minutes later.
It was stopped by the guard, I was like... uh oh.
I don't have a matric card.
But alhamduLILLAH, he was just looking around from the front, not personally checking one by one.

I went to the mosque to pray and waited for Aini.
She came and we hugged each other.

Catching up as fast as we could, then we headed to mahallah Asma'.
It was... spectacular. The view was nice.

We made our way to another mahallah for dinner and there I met Mas Munirah and Mawaddah.
I had a meeting with Inani Najihah also along with Amalina.

After a nice treat by Aini, I went up to her room and we chatted until Isya' then I left.

A cab, another LRT ride, the last bus ride home and a little walk...
I arrived in front of my home.
AlhamduLILLAH.

It was awkward.

To lost the confident that I used to have.

To write one-very-straight-forward travel log.
No adrenaline there, just... plain travel.

I am sorry for I had not meet most of my colleagues but this was actually an experiment.
I wanted to know whether I am able to travel again or not.

Alone, of course.

InsyaALLAH I'll make a more constructed plan next weekends.
InsyaALLAH.

Personal note,
a big applause for those who made it to Gombak and Kuantan finally.
I don't think there's any of my batch left at CFS except for minor cases.

A huge congratulations.
Strings of prayers.

And,
hats off.

:D

Memoir after-PMR graduation.
Short story #2

I heard this while I was working.

"Nak pergi Bukit Antarabangsa dah 2, 3 jam.
Kalau ada RM10 dalam poket memang tak sampai.

Ini baru perjalanan dunia.
Entah macam mana perjalanan ke akhirat?

Mungkin tak sampai-sampai kita ni."

ALLAHua'alam.

Tuesday, August 13, 2013

Things I want to understand.

BismiLLAHirrahmanirrahim.
Assalamualaikum warahmatuLLAHi wabarakatuh.


 اللهم صل على سيدنا محمد وعلى آله وصحبه وسلم

GOD inspired David [Daud] a.s. by saying,

“If those who turn from ME knew

how I wait for them and 
how tenderly I treat them 
and how I long for them to desist from their sins, 

they would die out of sheer longing for ME and 
their limbs would be hacked into pieces for love of ME.

O David, this is MY will for those who turn away from ME.
How then would MY will be for those who come towards ME?

O David, man needs ME most when he thinks to dispense with ME
I am most compassionate of My servant when he turns to ME 
but 
man is most sublime when he comes back to ME.”


- Imam al-Ghazzali in his Iyha Ulūm al-Dīn -


“I know of nothing more useful to you than four matters:

surrender to ALLAH,
to humbly entreat HIM,
to think the best of HIM,
and to perpetually renew your repentance to HIM,

even if you should repeat a sin seventy times in a day.”

Hikam of Imam Ibn Ata’illah


ALLAHua'lam.

Sunday, August 11, 2013

10 pesan guru.

BismiLLAHirrahmanirrahim.
Assalamualaikum warahmatuLLAHi wabarakatuh.


 اللهم صل على سيدنا محمد وعلى آله وصحبه وسلم

10 pesanan tarbiyyah Syeikhuna as-Sharif Yusuf Muhyiddin al-Bakhour al-Hasani.


1. Hendaklah mengenal orang yang kamu pilih sebagai sahabat.

2. Sentiasa bermuzakarah dengan Syeikh (Murobbi) atau Pengasuh.

3. Jangan tinggalkan zikir dan majlis ilmu.

4. Muhasabah sebelum tidur akan perbuatan-perbuatan yang telah dilakukan.

5. Berhusnu-dzon (baik sangka) kepada orang lain.

6. Pertimbangkanlah sebelum berbuat dan bertindak.

7. Gunakan pelbagai kesempatan dengan perkara-perkara yang baik dan jangan bermalas-malas.

8. Perbanyak ibadah-ibadah sunat, khususnya di waktu malam hingga fajar.

9. Senantiasa lahirkan (perbaharui) semangat dan tidak menunda-nunda dalam melakukan kebaikan.


10. Jadikanlah kekeliruan dan kesalahanmu sebagai pelajaran baru atau pesan rahsia dari ALLAH untuk kesempurnaanmu.

*****

10 pesanan Syeikhuna Rohimuddin al-Bantany.


1. Tempuhlah jalan kebaikan agar engkau selamat dari kesedihan dan marabahaya dan tahap suluk ada tiga: Islam, Iman dan Ihsan.

2. Zuhudlah! Maka engkau akan terpuji.

3. Bermujahadahlah melawan nafsu, maka hatimu akan cerdas menangkap semua rahsia ALLAH. 

4. Tawakallah! Maka engkau akan diterima (di sisi KHALIQ dan makhluq).

5. Banyaklah berdzikir kepada ALLAH! Engkau akan menyaksikan cahaya ketuhanan.

6. Senantiasalah engkau lapar (tidak banyak makan) dan hindarilah banyak tidur.

7. Diam merupakan sifat orang-orang Ashfiyaa (orang-orang yang berhati bersih). Sedangkan jidal (banyak bicara yang tidak ada manfaatnya) merupakan pekerjaan dan perilaku orang-orang jahil.

8. Uzlah (membatasi pergaulan hanya kepada orang soleh dan lingkungan soleh) bagi para pemula merupakan keselamatan agamanya, Sedangkan bergaul (dengan semua lingkungan) bagi para Syeikh justeru menambah keyakinannya.

9. Beradab kepada semua orang (khususnya para ulama) sebenrnya beradab kepada ALLAH.

10. Tamak kepada makhluk bererti ragu kepada Khaliq (ALLAH).

ALLAHua'lam.

Wednesday, August 7, 2013

Sebenarnya, aku...

BismiLLAHirrahmanirrahim.
Assalamualaikum warahmatuLLAHi wabarakatuh.


اللهم صل على سيدنا محمد وعلى آله وصحبه وسلم

Sebenarnya, aku... takut akan Ramadhan.


Benar. Sungguh. Tak tipu.

Ramadhan itu suci.
Ketua bagi seluruh bulan.

Sedangkan aku...
Kotor, hati berlumpur.
Hitam segala bagai.

Mana mungkin aku boleh bersama Ramadhan!
Mana mungkin yang suci itu dikotori!

Aku tidak menghitung hari.

Aku cuma membiarkan saja Ramadhan pergi.

Kerana aku takut,
dosa yang aku lakukan membuatkan Ramadhan membenci.
Cukuplah aku dibenci.

Janganlah ditambah dengan kebencian bulan yang paling murni!

Sebenarnya, aku... sangat takut akan Ramadhan.

Sedikit sebanyak aku menanti Syawal.

Bukan,
bukan sebab aku ingin merayakan perginya Ramadhan.
Bukan.

Bahkan aku menunggu Ramadhan yang seterusnya.
Jika ajal tak kunjung tiba.

Cuma aku malu!
Aku malu dengan kealpaanku.

Aku malu dengan aku.

Hingga ke hujung ini,
aku sendiri.



Dan DIA memberi.

Aku bukan diciptakan untuk Ramadhan.
Ramadhan itu yang diciptakan untukku.

DIA tahu,
akan dosa-dosaku.

Lalu diberinya, satu bulan yang ditutup pintu neraka.
Satu bulan yang dikunci segala musuh melata.
Dimana hanya pintu syurga dibuka.
Seluas-luasnya.

DIA mengerti,
aku ingin kembali.

Lantas diserunya,
setiap saat tanpa ada sebarang dugaan, cabaran, halangan.
Mintalah ampun, AKU akan ampunkan!
Menangislah kamu, AKU akan dengarkan!

Kerana engkau hamba,
AKU-lah TUHAN!

ALLAHu RABBi.

Kalau DIA mahu,
sudah dicipta manusia yang umpama malaikat tiada dosa.
Kalau DIA mahu,
tidak dicipta syaitan untuk menggoda.

Tapi tidak!
DIA masih menciptakan aku,
aku yang masih berbuat dosa kerana kelemahanku!

Dan DIA menunggu,
aku bersujud mengadu pilu.

Bukan hanya untuk sebulan,
bukan untuk setahun,
tetapi untuk sepanjang hidupku.

Akal tidak akan tercapai,
apa yang dirancang-NYA.
Kenapa masih berdosa?

Kerana akal itu makhluk.
Dan tidak mungkin makhluk mengerti PENCIPTA.
Seperti DIA mengenal DIA.



ALLAHua'lam.

Friday, August 2, 2013

Sakif Habibi, snips snaps I.

BismiLLAHirrahmanirrahim.
Assalamualaikum warahmatuLLAHi wabarakatuh.


 اللهم صل على سيدنا محمد وعلى آله وصحبه وسلم

Short versions of Sakif Habibi.
The journey of Qaiser and Farhan.


Lalalalabuuu.

"Sedapnya!"

Farhan bersungguh-sungguh menikmati hidangan di hadapannya. Cuti musim panas sudah bermula. Walaupun di Indonesia tiada perubahan musim yang ketara seperti di Amerika Syarikat, mujur cuti dia dan Qaiser seiiring.

"Aku tak rasa sedap pun. Biasa ja." Balas Qaiser. Perlahan dia membicarakannya itu. Sekadar supaya Farhan mendengar.

"Sedaplah. Hmm. Tapi aku tahu kenapa hang tak rasa macam aku."

Farhan mengangguk-anggukkan kepala seperti menyetujui pendapatnya sendiri. Qaiser hanya tersenyum melihat reaksi sahabatnya itu.

"Kenapa?" dia bertanya.

"Sebab hang dah rasa yang lagi sedap." Selamba Farhan menjawab.

"Oh." Selamba juga Qaiser membalas pendek.

"Sat."

Farhan kini memusingkan badannya ke belakang, tangan kirinya mencapai beg galas lalu dibuka. Dikeluarkannya sekotak makanan dan dihulurkan kepada Qaiser.

"Nah. Maaf tangan kiri."

"Eh. Sayur labu masak lemak? Mana hang dapat?" Qaiser mengerut kehairanan. Namun, tetap juga penutup makanan dibuka dan terus ditambah ke atas nasi.

"Adalah. Aku tahu hang gila labu. Dan aku tahu kenapa hang gila labu."

Farhan tersenyum besar memandang Qaiser. Dia tahu Qaiser tidak gemar penggunaan perkataan "gila." Saja dia mahu menunjukkan betapa hiperbola penyataannya itu.

"Kenapa?"  tanya Qaiser. Tidak menghiraukan senyuman Farhan.


"Sebab orang yang paling hang cinta suka labu. Kan?"

Qaiser terdiam.

"Aku tahu juga, hang tak makan sayur sebab bagi hang tak tepati selera. Tapi hang makan labu. Hang juga makan bila ada yang hulur dan hang akan habiskan juga." Sambung Farhan.

Qaiser tidak membalas apa-apa.

Tiba-tiba Farhan menghulur tisu kepada dia.

"Nah. Aku tahu hang akan teriak sekejap lagi. Siap-siap," kata Farhan.

Benar. Dia menyambut huluran. Air mata sudah tidak tertahan.


*****
Aishah R.A berkata :

RasuluLLAH S.A.W bersabda yg bermaksud,


 "Hai Aishah apabila kau masak gulai, maka perbanyakkan dalamnya buah labu kerana labu itu menguatkan hati yang duka".


Wednesday, July 24, 2013

He or she is not an angel!

BismiLLAHirrahmanirrahim.
Assalamualaikum warahmatuLLAHi wabarakatuh.


 اللهم صل على سيدنا محمد وعلى آله وصحبه وسلم

If I have to give an advice that I wish that will last forever,
I would say, insyaALLAH,

"Please treat a human like a human. He or she is not an angel!"


You might reply,

"Of course lah I know he's a human, what are you thinking? Pfft."

"Geez, we can't even see the angels with rough eyes! How could I - ever - think that she's an angel from above?"

My point is not about the physical that you are pointing at.
It is not about what you see. It is about how you see.

What are the differences? I'm not playing around with words.

To begin with,
did it crossed your mind how perfect someone's life is?

How he was born in a rich family.
How she never miss her usrah.
How he scored in each examination with flying colours.
How she knows how to cook perfectly.

And you are so jealous because it doesn't seem that you can see their flaw at all!

Had it crossed your mind? More or less something like that?

If I am right, then you are wrong. Slight. Not totally.
Because it is normal to somehow thinks like that.

What is not normal is when you are corrected again and again, you just don't listen.

But, human is human. We make mistakes. I make mistakes.


What I am trying to say is...
Please stop thinking in such a way.

If you keep on walking in this pace, you can't see the whole world just yet.

Because, once you see he or she makes mistakes, it will blow off your mind more than you can handle. You will find it difficult to keep your good impressions (husnu dzon).

On top of all,
the biggest problem somewhat will turn to you.

People will think you in that way.

People will think that you -- are an angel.

Again, not physically, but mentally.

Angels don't make mistakes!
But we did, and perhaps we are going to.

Just a slight mistake, and people will behave that you had sent a nuclear bomb somewhere!

And it will burden you.
You will ask GOD, "Whyyyy?"

Don't ask GOD why. HE is GOD.
That - you have to comprehend. HE is and always be GOD.

HE created us without asking, "Should I make you flawless?"
No.

So why are we asking HIM, "Why did I made such a foolish thing?"

Why?

Because we are so full of ourselves.
We think the world is ours.
We don't see each other in different perspectives.
It is like wearing the same glass for 20 years, when your lens should have been change every 6 months or so.


Don't blame others for mistakes.
Don't simply use the word "istidraj".
Don't blame yourself too heavy for a mistake, or many mistakes, also.

If ALLAH had wanted you to be flawless, HE could.
If ALLAH had wanted you to be so evil, HE could.

But HE made you full of flaw - but - HE also teaches you how to repent.

This is the part I am really trigger to say -- "Sweet kan ALLAH?"
*Just because so many people use that line.

I would like to share you this,
and let you ponder.



ALLAHua'lam.

Sunday, July 21, 2013

With-out it.

BismiLLAHirrahmanirrahim.
Assalamualaikum warahmatuLLAHi wabarakatuh.


 اللهم صل على سيدنا محمد وعلى آله وصحبه وسلم

Keputusan dibuat.

Semalam, hari ketiga tanpa niqab.

Ada yang bertanya, kenapa?
Jawapan: ALLAHua'lam.

:)



Semalam dijemput iftar di rumah sahabat.
Tak pernah berjumpa sebelum ini, tahu-tahu saja rumah diziarahi.

Hampir saja membuat keputusan tidak pergi.

Entah kenapa, hati diasak. "Pergilah, terima jemputan."

Lalu kami pergi bersama satu-satunya ahli bayt yang masih di sini, Fatihah.

BismiLLAHi masyaALLAH,
sangat... mesra.

Boleh saja bayangkan kami duduk sahaja melihat petahnya adik Zainab yang berumur 16 tahun itu menggamitkan suasana.
Melihat kakak-kakak di sekitarnya sibuk mengatakan; "Apalah dengan Zainab ni."

Kekeluargaan yang sebegitu... pelik.

Duduk di atas sofa itu.

Memandang ke kiri dan ke kanan. Yang kanan berbicara, dipandang.
Yang kiri membalas, dipandang.

Pelik.

Lamanya tidak bertemu "orang baru".

Dahulu, kami selalu bertanya kepada sesiapa, "Nampak tak kita senyum?"
Sekadar ingin memastikan, bahawa mereka tahu.

Tengah senyum, nampak kan?

:)

Hari pertama tanpa niqab, terkesan.
Sedang berjalan dari Suuq Sayyarat menuju ke Toob el-Ramly,
senyum melihat seorang anak kecil.

Dia yang sedang berjalan tiba-tiba mengalihkan pandangan kembali.

Membalas senyuman.

ALLAH.

Adakah yang faham?
Perasaan senyuman dibalas, oleh entah siapa-siapa.

Setelah sekian lama.



Of course the after-effects of me not wearing niqab is not the reason-before I made my decision.

So here I am.

A roller coaster ride in Cairo.

HE sent me here, so I live.

ALLAHua'lam.


Friday, July 12, 2013

A letter,

BismiLLAHirrahmanirrahim.
Assalamualaikum warahmatuLLAHi wabarakatuh.


Something, not by me, to ponder upon:




"As for what follows, I am writing a letter to you in which I do not hold back right guidance and I do not omit counsel. It contains the praise of ALLAH Almighty and the adab of HIS Messenger s.a.w.

So consider that with your intellect, turn your eyes to it, and devote your hearing to it. Understand it with you intellect and apply your understanding. Do not allow your mind to let it slip away.

It contains excellence in this world and the good reward of ALLAH Almighty in the Next.

Remind yourself of the throes of death and its grief, and what will happen to you when it comes, and what you know follows after death: being presented before ALLAH Almighty, and then the Reckoning, and then remaining forever either in the Garden of the Fire. Prepare for it something to make the terrors of those sights and their distress easy for you.

If you were to see the people who incur wrath of ALLAH Almighty and the myriad punishments they are heading to and the severity of the vengeance of ALLAH,

and if you were to hear their moaning in the Fire and their groaning with their livid faces and the length of their grief and their being turned over in their faces in its bottom levels where they cannot hear or see while calling out for utter and final destruction --

and the most terrible thing of all for them is the pain when ALLAH Almighty turns away from them

and their hope is cut off from HIM and HIS answer to them after the long drawn-out sorrow is
'Slink down in it and do not speak.'

If you remind yourself of this, nothing of this world will seem of any importance to you. You will want to be saved from that. You have no security from its terror. Even if you were to offer all that the people of this world have to seek deliverance, that would be little.

If you were to see the people who obey ALLAH and what they are destined to receive by way of honour from ALLAH, their position of nearness to ALLAH Almighty, the freshness of their faces and the light of their colours, their joy in looking at HIM, and having a place with HIM and their rank in HIS sight along with nearness to HIM,

those thing of this world which you seek and which appear immense in your eyes would then seem insignificant.

Be careful not to allow your lower self to beguile you.

Deal with your lower self before it gets better of you and remember the distress it will feel when death alights.

Contend with your soul for ALLAH Almighty while you still have time.

If ALLAH permits, you will be able to bring benefit to yourself and avert the punishment from yourself before ALLAH takes charge of your Reckoning. Once it comes you will not be able to avert from your soul that which it will hate nor bring any benefit to it.

Give ALLAH Almighty a portion of your time by night and day."


ALLAHUa'lam.

Wednesday, July 10, 2013

'Amal during haidh [Ramadhan Edition]

BismiLLAHirrahmanirrahim.
Assalamualaikum warahmatuLLAHi wabarakatuh.


اللهم صل على سيدنا محمد وعلى آله وصحبه وسلم

In addition to my previous seven substitutes ('Amal during haidh); I would write insyaALLAH an addition of seven more. This is what one might find ease to do during this holy month of Ramadhan.

I would try to make it vary from the previous but still in the circle of safeness, :)

May ALLAH redha.

Substitute number eight.

See some movies! Okaay, this is like an eye-opener is it? Well, that is exactly what I intended to do. Once I went to the house of one of my Syeikh here. I met her daughter and that wasn't a very perfect timing -- she was cleaning the house. So I sat in the room to wait for her and she convinced me to watch a movie.

A very nice, full-of-lessons movie.

Not to mention, it is Islamic! Yeay!

So I have to agree with this, a good two hours movie that fills your heart is better than taking two hours of nap because you just don't have anything to do. Get up and find some movies will you?

Substitute number nine.

Re-read the books. Yes, I admit this one is rather hard because I find myself too far from reaching those books that I already read. Uhuh.

But, no one will ever get everything correct during their first try trying sah? So, re-read your notes and books might amuse you to the extent that you think you had never read few parts of it before.

Substitute number ten.

Clean the toilet and kitchen.

Yes, I mentioned about doing some chores before, but now I am specifying that chores to two specific, above-mentioned place. Toilet and kitchen.

My Syeikh once said; "Those who are clean, tend to like clean places."

I had many thoughts about this matter. Well, to clean the toilet is not an easy task; moreover the kitchen. But, how about the heart itself? Hmm.

Substitute number eleven.

Memorize something that is not from the Quran. Well, such as, hadith and matan. Okaay, this might probably not applicable to those who are not in Islamic study field. But, what will do wrong for you dear engineers, to memorize some formula that you had struggle with before? What will do wrong for you dear doctors, to memorize some attachments of muscles and such?

There will be no harm insyaALLAH.

This is for your own good and education. You know it. Peace yo.

Substitute number twelve.

I actually can't believe I made it this far. AlhamduLILLAH.

Improve your second language! Such as? English or Arabic. Or... Germany perhaps? Eh? Where did that come from? Haha. Yes, you may choose what-ever language you want, as long as you focus on it my dear. Take it easy, and set a goal. You must at least know how to say... "I love you."

Eh.

Where-did-that-come-from?

Substitute number thirteen.

Ukhwah. Yes, you read it right. Go out and join that usrah! Though I, myself, am running from usrah :P

Okaay, I might not be a good example of making a good relation with everybody. But, I see no harm in asking one to do so.

Pray for me. May ALLAH gives me the gut to be nicer. Ameen.

Substitute number fourteen.

AlhamduLILLAH. The last one.

Cook for iftar and sahur, (if you can make it).

Would it be nice, to see the smiles?

p.s: I am changing -- yet again -- about my opinion to music. Whatever reminds you of ALLAH, tafadhal. I will not go against it if and only if it is not involving something against the syariah.

For as music, obviously there are still khilaf.



ALLAHUa'alam.