Tuesday, June 18, 2013

Apa masalahmu?

BismiLLAHirrahmanirrahim.
Assalamualaikum warahmatuLLAHi wabarakatuh.


اللهم صل على سيدنا محمد وعلى آله وصحبه وسلم


Pagi tadi, menerima panggilan dari sahabat, moga ALLAH meredhainya.
Ditanya kepada kami,

"Apa masalahmu?"

Kami diam.

Pernah dipesan salah seorang guru kami,
"Janganlah engkau menceritakan apa yang ALLAH lakukan untukmu. Itu tanda engkau tidak redha akan TUHANmu.

Akan tetapi,

janganlah pula engkau bersalah sangka bahawa sesungguhnya engkau tidak boleh bercerita apa pun dengan yang lain."

Fikir dan difikir.
Sesungguhnya semua bermula dengan niat.
Niat yang membezakan; adat dan ibadat.

Ada yang perlu kami cerita, ada yang tidak perlu.

Kami berkira-kira bertanya, "Salah ke hendak mengingati ALLAH?"

Ada yang membalas, jangan terlampau difikir. Tak mampu.
Kami mengingat kembali kata Syeikhuna.

"Love me, I will bring you to RasuluLLAH s.a.w.
Love RasuluLLAH s.a.w, then you will reach ALLAH s.w.t.
As I am the bridge to RasuluLLAH s.a.w, and he s.a.w is the bridge to ALLAH s.w.t."

Satu persatu langkah.

Sahabat yang tadi berbicara panjang. Kami hanya mendengar.
Tiba di satu cerita, kami berhasrat untuk menyampaikan.

Katanya;

RasuluLLAH s.a.w bertanya kepada Bilal r.a, "Apakah amalanmu?"
Tak mungkin RasuluLLAH s.a.w tidak mengetahui, baginda nabi.
Tapi, baginda s.a.w hendak mengajar umatnya.

Lalu Bilal r.a menjawab;

"Apabila aku berwudhu' dan kemudiannya terbatal, aku mengambil wudhu' semula."

Kata sahabat;

Wudhu' batal, ulang kembali. Ambil lagi. Wudhu' batal, ambil lagi.
Sentiasa dalam keadaan suci.

Itu zahir, apa yang tersirat?

Hakikatnya, apabila kita lupa ALLAH, ingatlah kembali.
Lupa ALLAH lagi, ingat lagi.

Ulang.


Kami diam.
Diam-diam, memikir ibrah.

Menjaga wudhu' bukan sesuatu yang mudah tanpa di-didik, tanpa kebiasaan.
Jika wudhu' terbatal, kebanyakannya bukan kerana mahunya kita.

Bukan kita yang hendak berhadas.

Kalau boleh, mahu suci sahaja, mudah segala.
Mudah untuk solat, membaca Quran.

Begitulah fikiran.

Bukan kita yang hendak lupa ALLAH.
Sudahlah baru mula mengenal.
Lupa pula.

Sikit-sikit, lupa.

Tapi, apa beza...
Apa beza mereka yang berdosa?
Taubat atau tidak. Itu beza.

Apa beza mereka yang ter-lalai? Ter...lalai.
Ingat kembali atau tidak.

Ada dua golongan mereka yang lupa dari sudut fiqh.
Mereka yang lupa dan ingat kembali apabila diberitahu.
Mereka yang lupa dan masih tidak ingat apabila diberitahu.

Ingatlah ALLAH, wahai Amirah.
Ingatlah ALLAH, wahai hamba.

Engkau itu tiada dalam adaNYA.

Pandang ke mana-mana. Di mana-mana. Apa?
Kullu ALLAH.

Kata sahabat, gunung itu tinggi.
Mampu ke nak naik?
Cubalah, katanya. Sikit-sikit.

Kita ini, satu langkah pun tak lepas lagi.


ALLAHua'lam.

Friday, June 14, 2013

Sila bergerak.

BismiLLAHirrahmanirrahim.
Assalamualaikum warahmatuLLAHi wabarakatuh.


اللهم صل على سيدنا محمد وعلى آله وصحبه وسلم

Soalan masyhur kepada penuntut al-Azhar yang akan mahupun sedang bercuti:

"Apa perancangan masa cuti?"


Jawapan dari kami yang hina dina,

Semuanya... insyaALLAH:

1. Mengulang muqarrar semester pengajian lepas.
2. Membaca muqarrar semester pengajian akan datang.
3. Mengulang hafazan al-Quran.
4. Menghafaz bacaan baru.
5. Mengulang hafazan matan.
6. Menghafaz matan baru.
7. Mengulang lihat video pengajian Syeikhuna.
8. Melazimi kelas Syeikhuna.
9. Melazimi pengajian yang lain.
10. Memantapkan bahasa Arab.
11. Menambah kosa kata bahasa Inggeris.

Kullu insyaALLAH, la haw la wa la quwwata illa biLLAH.

Lalu semalam muzakarah bersama ahbab Darul Hasani, bagaimana hendak mencapai impian yang ke-10?

Katanya, lihatlah video-video Habib.
Mereka berbahasa Fushah, dan kata-kata mereka ibarat syair.

ALLAHuRABBi.

Moga diberi kekuatan.
Perjalanan bermula!


ALLAHua'lam.

Monday, June 10, 2013

Bermimpilah bersamanya.

BismiLLAHirrahmanirrahim.
Assalamualaikum warahmatuLLAHi wabarakatuh.

اللهم صل على سيدنا محمد وعلى آله وصحبه وسلم

Kisah Ahlam.

Ehlam Ma'aya.
Bermimpilah bersamaku.

"BismiLLAH."

Ahlam melompat keluar dari tremco. Van yang sentiasa bersedia membawa penduduk Kaherah ke destinasi masing-masing dengan bayaran serendah LE0.50 hinggalah setinggi LE2.

"AlhamduLILLAH."

Dia selamat tiba di Bawabah Thani. Pandangannya kini terhala ke arah kasutnya.

"BismiLLAHi masyaALLAH."

Kasut yang tersedia koyak di bahagian depan, kini sudah semakin rabak.
'Dah macam mulut buaya,' bisik hatinya sendiri.

Dia membiarkan keadaan kasutnya yang begitu. Bagaimana mahu menukar? Dia sudah serik untuk memikirkan tentang itu. ALLAH masih kata 'tidak'. Manakan dia mahu mengatakan 'ya'. Tidak, dia tidak akan katakan ya.

Suasana petang di Kaherah, masih tidak berubah walaupun suhu semakin meningkat. Jika membasahkan diri, sekejap sahaja sudah berpeluh kembali.

Kalau diikutkan hati, boleh sahaja dia duduk bersenang-lenang. Imtihan sudah hampir sampai ke penghujung. Boleh sahaja dia setia di rumah berhadapan segala macam hiburan.

Tapi, entah, hatinya di mana. Dia pun tidak tahu.

Akhirnya dia tiba di penghujung jalan. Lalu dia membelok ke kanan dan kemudiannya memasuki pintu pertama yang dilihat. Satu ruangan yang biasa pada pandangannya, tempat dia bertalaqqi.

Sama sahaja pada dia.
Talaqqi mahupun tidak.
Yang penting, hati.

Sedaya upaya dia memegang rapi kasut yang dibawa. Sedikit dia segan, jika terlihat oleh rakan sepengajian. Kamar muslimah di masuki, memberi salam kemudiannya duduk bersama.
Muraja'ah, muzakarah ataupun zikir.

Tiada apa yang istimewa.
Hanya sekadar itu.
Yang penting, taqwa.

Usai pengajian, dia segera menghulur kepada seorang sahabat.

"Duit kitab," kata Ahlam.

Kata guru, dua perkara yang tidak boleh dikongsi; "Kitab dan isteri."

Itulah apa yang dihulur setiap awal bulan.

Pasti mengambil kalkulator, mengira.
Sudah berapa lama dia mahu membeli sepasang kasut yang baru.

Tak cantik pun tak apa.
Mungkin, yang tidak akan dimasuki air apabila melalui jalan yang basah.
Tak menawan pun tak apa.

Tapi ALLAH kata 'tidak'.
ALLAH kata, 'nanti ya'.

Sabar Ahlam. Sabar.

Mengaji dulu.

Tapi... dan dia tahu banyaknya "tapi".
Syeikh yang mengajar al-Quran di Darasah sudah bertanya.

"Aina Ahlam?" (Di mana Ahlam?)

Bagaimana mungkin dia memberitahu.
Sedangkan hendak ke sana pun dia perlu tangguhkan?

Tapi ALLAH kata 'sabar'.
Diganti waktu petang itu, ALLAH menggantikan dengan kelas yang lain.
Yang lebih mudah baginya.

Beberapa hari kemudian, Ahlam memberanikan diri.
Meminjam sepasang kasut dari rakan.
Kasut yang jarang dipakai.

Dia berjalan penuh yakin.
Tak akan tenggelam di dalam pasir.
Tak akan termasuk akan air.

Tapi...

Kini kakinya pula yang diuji.
Sakit sedikit. Mungkin kerana saiz yang sedikit sempit.

Senyap dia sendiri.

Sendiri lagi dia ke talaqqi.
Pagi dan petang setiap hari.

Dia bersama kasutnya kembali.
Sendiri bermimpi.

Bermimpi.

Mungkinkah satu hari nanti, ada yang akan menemani?
Mendengar bebelan tentang anatomy, akan talaqqi?
Setia muraja'ah physiology atau hadis nabawi?

Bermimpi.

Mungkinkah,

masih bersama sepasang kasut yang sama lagi?

*****


ALLAHua'lam.

Wednesday, June 5, 2013

He is my vein.

BismiLLAHirrahmanirrahim.
Assalamualaikum warahmatuLLAHi wabarakatuh.


اللهم صل على سيدنا محمد وعلى آله وصحبه وسلم


One of my oral questions for Anatomy yesterday was;
"What are the branches of Femoral Artery?"

Do you what I replied?
"Can I give you branches of Popliteal Artery instead?"

AlhamduLILLAH 'ala kulli ni'mah, the doctor agreed.

So I enumerated.

Now, let us relate.

Arteries, veins and... surprise surprise, marriage.

Eh?

:)

Cougggh reflex.

Truth to be told, in our bodies, we have not only one type of vessels functioning as blood pathways; we have two. Indeed. Arteries (to carry oxygenated blood except Pulmonary Arteries) and its accompanying veins (to carry de-oxygenated blood except Pulmonary Veins).

Do you notice the different in names of the vessels?

The strange thing is, the vessels (let us take arteries for example here) are connected to each other. All are from one -- dividing into many, many branches.

If you feel you clavicle (i.e your collar bone), the artery located under it is called Subclavian Artery. However, when you move your hand towards your axilla (i.e your armpit), the name changes to Axillary Artery.

For serious.

It is the exact same artery, with few branches coming out of it.

And that's just two of the names.

This is few names of the arteries we are learning. Wachaa!
Imagine yourself as an artery. Or imagine anyone, it's fine by me.

An artery has its starting point. So do us.
An artery will find its end. So will us insyaALLAH.

Along the course, an artery will give out branches. Sometimes, it supply the muscles it goes through with oxygenated blood, sometimes it doesn't.

Sometimes, the artery will have a "friend" -- the nerve.
They will arise side by side, sometimes the nerve at the front and most of the times, they split.

It all, occur in our life.

All these years of living, we have our important events and such.
We have problems to solved, dreams to be achieved.

Sometimes, we had enough.

Sometimes, we continue the journey in a different way.

We will meet hundreds, perhaps thousands of people along our path.
But no one, will ever stay forever by our side.

We will, find ourself eventually alone.

But we have to remember, for every artery, there is an accompanying vein.

The artery started from head to toe (heart to limbs to be exact), in contrast, the vein started from bottom to top.
Also, the vein has tributaries (i.e branches in arteries).
Courses and all.

The most important thing, it always, always, accompany its corresponding artery.
Except for some isolated cases where the name of the vein is totally different such as Cephalic Vein.

So, whatever you are going through, whether it is easy or I-just-want-to-die-kind-of-hardship, just... be patient.

I know it is easy to say. And type.

But, if you are looking for - the one -, if you are waiting, just know, he or she is going through almost exactly the same thing.

"Women impure are for men impure, and men impure for women impure
and women of purity are for men of purity, and men of purity are for women of purity:
these are not affected by what people say:
for them there is forgiveness, and a provision honourable." 24:26

Wait-a-minute, I am not exactly an-angel-like person.
Does that mean I don't have any chance to marry a good person?

Stop.

The answer is just a few verses behind the verse above.

"...but ALLAH does purify whom HE pleases..." 24:21.

And few verses after.

"And whoever repents and does good has truly turned to ALLAH with an (acceptable) conversion." 25:71

Nabi Luth 'alaihissalam is a Prophet, yet his wife did not accept his preaches.
Asiah is one of the best women, yet she is the wife of Pharoah.

ALLAH knows what is the best, so we have to try our best.


I am an artery.
And he who ALLAH created for me is my vein.

But we still are finding our capillaries,
so that when it comes the time we have to connect with each other,
insyaALLAH the anastomosis will be perfect.

May we find our veins at the time HE wants us to find it.

FatahALLAHu'alaik.

Saturday, June 1, 2013

He shook my hand.

BismiLLAHirrahmanirrahim.
Assalamualaikum warahmatuLLAHi wabarakatuh.


اللهم صل على سيدنا محمد وعلى آله وصحبه وسلم

I watched this video earlier and it triggered my memories.



One or two years back, I was invited by one of my closest friend who live nearby.
Her name is Farah Aisyah by the way :)

She was having a feast for her relatives and really we were close and still is insyaALLAH.
So I went there and stayed until the last minute.

I was wearing my usual hijab and all.
And believe me it was a long-enough hijab.
I will explain why I mention this afterwards insyaALLAH.

There was a women and a child left.
They were waiting for her husband, who is a relative of Farah if I'm not mistaken.
He showed up at last, ate some food and was ready to leave.

We all stood up, as a sign of respect and they shook hands with each other.
Suddenly, he offered his hand to me.
And I was like -- EH?

The first thing that crossed my mind was,
"Hadn't he see my hijab?"
The second thing,
"Isn't it long enough?"

Everyone stared. What I did was, I shook his hand back -- as quickly as I can.
It was merely a reflect action believe me.
The reflect action when someone gave his or her hand and you can't think of any better way to push it away.

I felt -- wrong.
And I told Farah. She comforted me and she told me that it was an accident and it doesn't count as a sin.

I forgot about it few days later and live on with my life.

Until I saw the video.

Truth to be told, who I am right now is not who I was.
It applies to everyone. A Muslim or not. General application - believe me.

In Islam, we have rules.
We can't shake hands and all with a different gender.
Every rule have it benefits and ALLAH had made it a guideline.

It is safer for everyone, not to have free relations with the other gender.
But it does not mean that we can't make friends.
For those who know me personally, they know how my relation with others well.

I am one of those, whatever you call it, a very hyper-active person.
I make friends with those I want to be friends with.
And in most situation, everyone in the room. Boys or girls.

There was not a slightest problem for us when it come to this "no-you-can't-touch-me" rules.
I am being frank here, and I want to be truthful.
All out. Please digest it in your mind carefully because I am not forcing you to read this.
But if you do, please, do comprehend.

We don't have a problem because we understand each other.
And friendship is not all about physical contact. I don't even think friendship is based on physical contact - at all.
I think most of us agree with this.

However, there will be a problem when:

1. The others doesn't know about this.
2. Those who know doesn't understand why the other party doesn't know.

Public relation is crucial.
You are not living in this world alone.

There are people who doesn't know about certain things in each religion.
Come on, even the simplest Math took us time, how can we expect everyone to understand each one of us? It might be a general knowledge for you, but you have to face it, it is not for everyone.

Therefore, for me, how the Syeikh (see video above) react was acceptable.
And for my situation above also, perhaps it was not the best solution because I can just say no, but it was a solution. It was and still is.

This part below is a note for my fellow Muslims:
If you study fiqh, you will know that there are obviously khilaf in this problem. There are many opinions from fuqaha' regarding this matter. Even in our mazhab, Syafi'iyyah. Please don't condemn people or having bad thoughts, when you yourself doesn't take the chance to study your religion thoroughly.

Some people doesn't know, so live with it.
Tell them nicely and with manner.

I am being strict with you, because you are being strict with everyone else in this world.
Including yourself.
I know that feeling when you get yourself corrected. I know. It's not an easy feeling but it is good for your future.

Okay, let us get back to the straight path.

You can't change what you did.
I can't rewind my time.

But what each of us can do is, to know how to react afterwards.

What?

You expect yourself to cry 24 hours over it?

It is good -- to cry over your sins.
GOD is Most Merciful and Most Forgiving.
If HE wants HIS creation to like an angel, HE would have created us as an angel.
But HE doesn't. And HE did not create us born-to-be-devil also.
If HE did, then there will be no nice persons around.
Think.

Maybe HE wants you to feel guilty and to have a long thought about what you did over this time.
To think about what you did wrong and apologise to HIM.

Maybe HE wants you to know that there are people who doesn't know about something.
Just like you doesn't know that some opinions of fuqaha' about this matter.

Maybe HE wants you to learn how to react.
How to explain to those who doesn't know.

Think.

Differentiate ourselves from the animals.
We eat, they eat. We sleep, they sleep. We work, they also running around.
But we have brains to be used. Not to let it rotten.

Everything have it good sides and bad sides.
See the good and bright sides. Because if you live the other way round, I don't think you will be happy.

This is a long post, I know.
But, something have to be clear.

You might wear a long hijab,
you might even wear niqab.
You might wear a turban,
you might even hold tasbeeh in your hands.

But, to some people, especially those who live in a very open-minded environment,
you are just simply another human in this world.

Simple example, my Syeikh is a Syeikh to me.
But for you?
If you had seen him for a distance, you might just think him as another Arab Muslim.
So does the non-Muslims. They might even see him as just another person.

p.s: I love and respect my Syeikh by the way.

I end my opinion with a hope.
Syadid in religion is good, syariah is there for a reason.
But everything have boundaries and limitations.
Apply your religion as perfect as you can.

I know some people want to isolate themselves from this dunya (world),
but to jump-straight-to-the-point of isolation, just think for a second,
ALLAH had created us all.

There must be a reason for those people around you to at least -- exist.

Masyi?

FatahALLAHua'laik.

p.p.s:

Tell me if you have a different opinion in this matter. Don't be afraid.
Come on, we have different brains.
What I don't tolerate is, to condemn somebody's opinion, behind the person.
What are we? Chickens?
Even chickens don't do that.

Yes, that one is harsh.
I am sick of back-biting.
May GOD save us.