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Assalamualaikum w.b.t. This travel dated: 25th February 2012. I was at home, planning to go to a Kuliyyah by Sheikh Ahmad Fahmi Zamzam AnNadwi AlMaliki. I have heard of his name first mentioned by Syeikhuna, Ustaz Muhadir. And I know that he live in Kedah, if I'm not mistaken. So, I had been in this idea that I won't have a chance to meet him. So... It was exciting (if I could ever express my feelings in words) to know that he's here, I mean, he's in a place that I could reach insyaAllah. I asked ami (my mother) to send me to Batu 3 KTM Station, as I am still not comfortable with the idea of taking a bus after my second last travel . The Kuliyyah was scheduled to start at 9 but I know I won't make it because, well, I don't know where is the place as it would be my first time travel to Damansara and I departed late. I reached the station and it was not long before the train arrived, I stood there just for minutes. Alhamdulillah. I know that the n...

Assalamualaikum w.b.t. Update 16/5/2013: http://umairahazwani.blogspot.com/2013/05/wirid-yang-dinanti.html Ingin ku katakan, apa yang bakal ku sebutkan hanya pendapat semata-mata. Dan Allah Maha Mengetahui segala sesuatu. Beberapa hari yang lepas, terlihatlah sebuah buku bertajuk, Majmu' Syarif. Pertama kali ku lihat dan tidak pernah ku ketahui sebelum ini. Jadi, diri memutuskan untuk melihat dan mempelajari apa yang di dalamnya. Buku yang ku baca itu terjemahan Melayu. Sedangkan kitab yang asal, tiada nama penulisnya. Dibahagikan kepada 30 bab, dimulakan dengan Fadhilat Surah Pilihan dan disusuli dengan pelbagai doa. Pada 10 bab pertama yang menerangkan fadhilat surah-surah, tidak merasakan apa-apa yang pelik di situ lalu diteruskan pembacaan dan sekali gus cubaan menghafal isi-isinya. Sehinggalah kepada bab yang menerangkan fadhilat doa. Kerana terdapat 20 bab yang selebihnya dipenuhi dengan doa, hanya 5 bab pertama saja yang dibaca. Kerana pernah ku baca,...

Assalamualaikum w.b.t. Today, I travelled to: Masijd ar-Rahman, University Malaya. I was planning to go alone, even though I had asked my friends. I just could see the answer "no." And I've been right. I won't lie that it sadden me a little. Little did I thought, I would go with a senior. A sister, if I have to mention. The main reason, and truly, my intention was to attend "UM Berselawat." There's no doubt, it had been arranged by the students there. I had this calm feeling surrounding my heart when I said I am going to "UM Berselawat." It feels like, well, a pray. An honest pray that all of the Muslims in UM always remember our beloved prophet, Muhammad s.a.w. I also noted that there will be two honourable guests, which are Al-Habib Najqmuddin bin Othman Al-Kirid and Al-Habib Ali Zaenal Abidin bin Abu Bakar Al-Hamid. I've never seen them, never had the chance to meet. Now they are close enough, I won't let the opportunity to...

Assalamualaikum w.b.t. So I sit here, trying to type. Whatever it is in my mind right now. I had been better, but never been worse. Alone, as usual. But this loneliness will stay until Monday. It's the weekend holiday plus the public holiday. I am everything, but thrilled. I tried to eat twice today, as I made the decision to buy rice and veggies as usual, on my normal day. Yesterday hadn't been normal. I ate nothing, but slices of bread. No longer I had the strength to cry. I just don't know why, I couldn't eat. So I forced myself to eat, when a friend stopped by. I know for a fact, my body will have to accept the food. My mind and my body both are playing games. The logic side of my brain will instruct my mouth to chew, forcing the food down my throat and fill my stomach. My body on the other hand will digest it. Enough protein for the day. This is an act, I have to live with everyday. As long as there is someone near me, my mind won't let me starve ...

Assalamualaikum w.b.t Ya Allah, berilah rahmat ke atas penghulu kami, nabi Muhammad S.A.W. yang dengan berkat baginda, engkau menyembuhkan hati-hati, menjadi penawar dan menyihatkan tubuh badan juga memberi kesembuhan penyakit serta mengurniakan cahaya penglihatan dan kurniakanlah juga rahmat keberkatan dan kesejahteraan keatas keluarga dan sahabat baginda. Di dalam dunia, penyakit apa yang paling bahaya? Yang merosakkan kebanyakan manusia, yang salah satunya diumpakan seperti api memakan kayu? Tiga penyakit hati, hasad, ujub dan riya'. Tidaklah diri layak membahaskan tiga penyakit hati ini. 'Amar ma'ruf, nahi munkar, insyaAllah sekadar mengingatkan yang sudi membaca dan juga diri sendiri. Diri menyayangi anda semua sebagai saudara, kita sama agama, dekat di hati, jauh di mata. Diri merindui tazkirah anda semua, mengingatkan segala sesuatu. Tegurlah jika ada kesalahan, kecacatan yang jelas di mata. Walaupun mungkin pahit di mulut, tapi manis ter...