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BismiLLAHirrahmanirrahim. Assalamualaikum warahmatuLLAHi wabarakatuh.  اللهم صل على سيدنا محمد وعلى آله وصحبه وسلم Keputusan dibuat. Semalam, hari ketiga tanpa niqab. Ada yang bertanya, kenapa? Jawapan: ALLAHua'lam. :) Semalam dijemput iftar di rumah sahabat. Tak pernah berjumpa sebelum ini, tahu-tahu saja rumah diziarahi. Hampir saja membuat keputusan tidak pergi. Entah kenapa, hati diasak. "Pergilah, terima jemputan." Lalu kami pergi bersama satu-satunya ahli bayt yang masih di sini, Fatihah. BismiLLAHi masyaALLAH, sangat... mesra. Boleh saja bayangkan kami duduk sahaja melihat petahnya adik Zainab yang berumur 16 tahun itu menggamitkan suasana. Melihat kakak-kakak di sekitarnya sibuk mengatakan; "Apalah dengan Zainab ni." Kekeluargaan yang sebegitu... pelik. Duduk di atas sofa itu. Memandang ke kiri dan ke kanan. Yang kanan berbicara, dipandang. Yang kiri membalas, dipandang. Pelik. Lamanya tidak bertemu "ora...

BismiLLAHirrahmanirrahim. Assalamualaikum warahmatuLLAHi wabarakatuh. A change for a better good. How should it be? To what extent? What does it mean, really, to wear niqab and such? Nothing. Nothing if you think it that way. There is merely no difference, a Muslim wearing niqab or not. The person herself might feel like a ghuraba' (stranger), but it is deep inside. You just can't live in this world, with the people, if you act like one. You know, being different is good but sometimes it is not unique. It is not wrong either, as you can't find two persons exactly the same! Just, don't make niqab as a HUGE wall between you and others. We was told by our Syeikh, if our niqab made us so shy and such, it is better to not wear it. Hold on , don't have a wrong thought about my Syeikh! He meant that; if the niqab made us shy to ask question -- what's the point? If the niqab kept our mind busy with other th...

Assalamualaikum w.b.t. Snapshots, of my memories. One. While walking in front of IRKHS Building. Me: "Assalamualaikum." Her: *blank* Me: *smile* and left. Her to her friend: "Is that Amirah Hazwani?" Her friend: *nod* and "Uhuh." Her: "Oh, never seen her without niqab before~ I was shocked." Two. During the "banning" of niqab. "Sis, this is my first time that I see your face." -message- Three. Days before exam. Sir: "Do your revision at least three times." The night before exam.  *Open the book for the first time* Four. After every summarization of each Physics chapter. Madam: "Physics is simple~" During exam. *Blank* Five. During BTQ. Me: "If I speak to fast, then please raise up your hand or I will assume that you understand everything that I said." *speakspeakspeak* *saw team mates gave a sign to slow down* Me: "But they didn't raise up their h...

Assalamualaikum w.b.t. Islam itu mudah. Muzik itu indah. Pilihan, masing-masing. Seni kata dari:  http://iffah-hidayah-rejab.blogspot.com/2011/03/tholama-asyku-ghoromi.html طالما اشكو غرامى يا نور الوجود وانادى يا تهامى يا معدن الجود Lama sudah aku menanggung rindu; Wahai cahaya alam yang indah, Serta aku menyeru, Wahai Nabi s.a.w, Wahai punca ilmu yang pemurah. منيتى اقصى مرامى احظى بالشهود وارى باب السلام يا زاكى الجدود Impianku setinggi-tinggi cita-cita; Moga diberikan tuah dapat melihatmu; Juga melihat Bab al Salam (di Masjid Nabawi); Wahai sesuci-suci insan. . يا طراز الكون انى عاشق مستهام مغرم والمدح فنى يا بدر التمام Wahai hiasan dunia ini, Aku amat cinta dan rindu padamu; Hanya pujian menjadi persembahanku; Wahai bulan mengambang penuh. اصرف اعراضا عنّي اصناني الغرام فيك قد احسنت ظنّي يا سامى العهود Jauhkanlah segala penghalangku daripadamu; Yang kupendam hanya kerinduan terhadapmu...

Assalamualaikum w.b.t. “ Ana minta doakan kepada ukhti yang memakai niqab supaya selamat.” “ Niqab diharamkan di CFS.” Semalam dan hari ini. Perkara yang dijangka sudah tiba. Penguatkuasaan peraturan tidak boleh memakai niqab di CFS. Berita itu tidak sampai kepada ana, hinggalah lewat malam semalam. Ketika jam sudah menunjukkan lebih pukul 12, masih berada di E007 untuk mesyuarat bersama rakan ENGENIUS. Presiden mendapat mesej dan membacanya dihadapan semua. “ Ukhti yang memakai niqab sudah dipanggil principal. Mari kita doakan semua ukhti yang memakai niqab supaya selamat.” Semua memandang ana. Ana memandang Presiden. Mata ana memandang dia, namun hati ana entah ke mana. Seketika kemudian kami diminta bermuhasabah diri. Hati ana entah ke mana. Kembali ke mahallah ana berehat. Paginya ana dikejutkan sahabat untuk solat Subuh berjemaah. “ Kalau Amirah nak pakai niqab, Amirah kena bersedia untuk segalanya.” Ana menanti, wakil dari sesiapa ...

Assalamualaikum w.b.t. I asked, and someone replied: "It is all right for a woman to travel alone, but it is afraid that fitnah would occur." I travelled to my kampung (village) on Saturday and back to CFS. I travelled to Masjid Jamek on Sunday and back to CFS. Here is the log. Saturday. I woke up around 5 a.m and planned my day. I was suppose to depart at 7 as my older sisters' train from Perlis would arrive by then. But I was stalled by something. I logged in to my Skype account that morning with an intention of deleting it. Because I still have brothers in my Skype account though I barely chat with any of them. So I thought it would be pointless for me to have an account, but that morning; I received many late messages. I had realised that the WiFi connection here in CFS is not as good as usual, and sometimes it limits the connection. But I hadn't realised it would be that bad. I received messages from days before. I created my Skype acco...

Assalamualaikum w.b.t. Today I, hit the road, :D Slept at 3 o'clock and woke up for Fajr prayer. Getting myself ready for Talaqqi at Madrasah An-Nur at 12noon. Those who wanted to go must gather at 11a.m both brothers and sisters. So I waited and waited. Okay, I might had slept while waiting *innocently smile*. While I was getting ready, I felt very -- hype. I don't exactly know why but perhaps it was because it is Talaqqi, so I am excited by idea of studying and read books and gain knowledge. Fun :D I left my room empty, as both my room mate went home this week, carrying only a bag filled with a note book and al-Quran translation. I walked and walked. I arrived at the front gate few minutes after 11a.m. And I am all alone. Shall I freak out? I guessed not. But I did, when I saw two brothers and I assumed they were also planning to go to Talaqqi. For a mere second, I gave them a quick glance and they also gave me a quick glance and the three of us knew, we...