Hidupku, matiku hanya untuk Allah.

Assalamualaikum w.b.t. Al-Imam Abdullah bin Alawi bin Muhammad bin Ali Al-Tarimi Al-Haddad Al-Husaini Al-Yamani mewasiatkan di dalam wasiatnya yang pertama: Biasakanlah pula mengerjakan shalat sunnah dhu h â secara rutin, sebanyak delapan rakaat, dan irirngilah dengan bacaan sesudahnya, sebanyak empatpuluh kali: (Ya Allah, ampunilah daku dan berikanlah taubat (atas segala dosa-ku). Sesungguhnya Engkaulah Maha Pemberi Taubat lagi Maha Penyayang). Bilakah yang dikatakan waktu Dhuha? Waktu untuk mengerjakan solat Dhuha adalah sewaktu matahari mulai naik iaitu sebaik sahaja berakhirnya waktu yang diharamkan solat setelah solat Subuh (12 minit setelah matahari terbit atau untuk lebih berhati-hati laksanakannya setelah 15 minit) sehingga sebelum matahari condong atau tergelincir ketika tengahari (10 minit sebelum masuk waktu Zuhur atau untuk lebih berhati-hati laksanakannya sebelum 15 minit). Menurut Syaikh al-‘Utsaimin di dalam Asy-Syarhul Mumti’ : Jika demikian,...

Assalamualaikum w.b.t. Malam di CFS yang mungkinnya seperti biasa bagi yang lain, tapi bagi diri ini, berbeza sedikit. Malam ini, diberi satu peluang yang jarang sekali. Berjalan ke masjid, memasuki pintu masuk, dan mendengar "Bicara Hikmah&Senandung Zikir." Berpeluang melihat Ustaz Syed Abdul Kadir al-Jofree. Subhanallah, Maha Suci Allah. Segala pujian itu hanyalah untukMu, ya Allah. Dalam kesepian malam menuju ke masjid, mengambil peluang dengan seboleh-bolehnya. Langkah yang kecil, dengan harapan menambah pahala. Teringat saat pertama kali menjejakkan diri ke masjid UIAM. Ketika diri disarankan, berjemaah sahaja di mahallah. Yang kerap kali keluar masuk masjid itu kebanyakannya brothers. Maka diri pun menahan niat, mengelakkan fitnah. Tidak ku jejaki masjid itu berbulan lamanya. Tapi sejauh mana boleh ku lari? Selalu sahaja mengambil tempat duduk, di tingkat 3 perpustakaan, di hujung sekali. Kerana apa? Kerana di situ dapat dilihat masjid yang b...

Assalamualaikum w.b.t. Ditakdirkan Allah s.w.t, awal Muharram ini membawa satu perubahan kepada diri. Adakah mungkin ini hijrahku yang paling utama setakat ini?   عَنْ ثَوُبَانَ رَضِىَ اللهُ عَنْهُ قَالَ : قَالَ رَسُوْلُ اللهِ صَلَّى اللهُ عَلَيْهِ وَسَلَّمَ : طُوْبىَ لِمَنْ مَلَكَ لِسَانَهُ، وَوَسِسعَهُ بَيْتَهُ، وَبَكَى عَلَى خَطِيْئَتِهِ Daripada Tsauban Radhiallahu ‘Anhu katanya: Telah bersabda Rasulullah (sallallahu alaihi wasalam): Berbahagialah bagi orang yang mampu mengawal lidahnya, dan luas rumahnya, dan menangis  (kerana menyesali) kesalahannya   [Hadis Hasan Riwayat Thabarany] Mungkin sekarang diri kurang berbicara, tapi banyak pula yang ditulis. Apakah menulis dan berkata itu sama? Persamaannya ada pada yang mendengar dan membaca. Mesej yang disampaikan itu sama, cuma cara berbeza. Apabila berkata-kata, laju saja mulut menyebutnya, kadang-kadang terluka yang mendengar. Apabila menulis, laju saja tangan melakukannya, kadang-kadang t...

Assalamualaikum w.b.t. Yesterday resume today. When sis Aisyah and I walked back to the mosque, they were more people in it. We sat on the place we sat earlier and we both read Ratib al-Haddad together. Usually I would it alone, however, it felt good to have a companion. The dawn had came to its end, Maghrib will arrive soon. I was about to take off my niqab when a sister opened the curtain thus revealing the other side of the mosque. The Muslimeens' side. I waited and the Imam started the zikr and selawat. Just a few minutes after, the do'a for end of the year were recited. All the ma'mum followed the Imam. Subhanallah. After it ended, the Bilal started to azan. Calling all Muslims to pray. It was different than the azan at CFS, however, I shouldn't be expected people to have the same way to azan. Then the do'a for starting of the year were recited. Again, the ma'mum followed the Imam. And we prayed, together. They were few ...

Assalamualaikum w.b.t. Today, I travelled to: Masijd ar-Rahman, University Malaya. I was planning to go alone, even though I had asked my friends. I just could see the answer "no." And I've been right. I won't lie that it sadden me a little. Little did I thought, I would go with a senior. A sister, if I have to mention. The main reason, and truly, my intention was to attend "UM Berselawat." There's no doubt, it had been arranged by the students there. I had this calm feeling surrounding my heart when I said I am going to "UM Berselawat." It feels like, well, a pray. An honest pray that all of the Muslims in UM always remember our beloved prophet, Muhammad s.a.w. I also noted that there will be two honourable guests, which are Al-Habib Najqmuddin bin Othman Al-Kirid and Al-Habib Ali Zaenal Abidin bin Abu Bakar Al-Hamid. I've never seen them, never had the chance to meet. Now they are close enough, I won't let the opportunity to...

Assalamualaikum w.b.t. I closed my eyes, and memories flashes. I opened both. I can't breath, I tried to. Really hard . I saw nothing but water, I was surrounded by them, and shades of light above me. I remembered it clearly now, I was drowning. For I know I can't swim, I try to push myself up to the surface. But it was useless. No matter how hard I tried, it seemed that I'm getting nearer to the bottom of the pool. I thought, "why on Earth would I separate myself from my family? They could have see me drowning and save me." Then I knew the reason, I was separated from them because I wanted to. I wanted to be alone. But I never wanted to drown and die all by myself. I tried to breath again, and I failed. Water came in instead of air. I started to let go, letting my body to drift away, to sink. I was too little, haven't been to school yet, and I was ready to die. I closed my eyes. And I felt a hand grabbed me, I survived. I op...

Assalamualaikum w.b.t. So I sit here, trying to type. Whatever it is in my mind right now. I had been better, but never been worse. Alone, as usual. But this loneliness will stay until Monday. It's the weekend holiday plus the public holiday. I am everything, but thrilled. I tried to eat twice today, as I made the decision to buy rice and veggies as usual, on my normal day. Yesterday hadn't been normal. I ate nothing, but slices of bread. No longer I had the strength to cry. I just don't know why, I couldn't eat. So I forced myself to eat, when a friend stopped by. I know for a fact, my body will have to accept the food. My mind and my body both are playing games. The logic side of my brain will instruct my mouth to chew, forcing the food down my throat and fill my stomach. My body on the other hand will digest it. Enough protein for the day. This is an act, I have to live with everyday. As long as there is someone near me, my mind won't let me starve ...

Assalamualaikum w.b.t "Dan katakanlah kepada perempuan-perempuan yang beriman supaya menundukkan pandangan mereka (daripada memandang yang haram), dan memelihara kehormatan mereka dan janganlah mereka memperlihatkan perhiasan tubuh mereka kecuali yang zahir daripadanya". (Surah an-Nur 31) Saudari muslimahku, kita sering diumpamakan seperti permata, atau sesuatu yang berharga. Kemuliaan kita sebagai seorang wanita terletak pada satu sifat yang utama, sifat malu. Lalu bagaimanakah sifat malu itu? Malu adalah satu kata yang mencakup perbuatan menjauhi segala apa yang dibenci.[Lihat Raudhatul ‘Uqalâ wa Nuzhatul Fudhalâ' (hal. 53)]   Begitulah definisinya. Jika kita sebagai wanita mempunyai sifat malu, maka kita akan menjauhi segala apa yang dibenci. Dibenci siapa? Pastilah dibenci Allah, dibenci manusia dan diri kita sendiri. Dari Abu Mas’ûd ‘Uqbah bin ‘Amr al-Anshârî al-Badri radhiyallâhu ‘anhu ia berkata, “Rasulullah Shallallahu ‘alaihi wa sallam ...