Reasons: "Why I didn't blog."

Assalamualaikum w.b.t.


This is somewhat, contradict to Reasons: Why People Should Have Blog?

I have been in the semester break for quite a while right now.
Having to work, baking actually for several days in a row. Helped ami with hers and stumbling around here and there in my house.


I had, really, searching for my way how to survive in real world.


In CFS, of course, I had my own schedule.
I had my goal of what to do every day.


There will be usual classes, talaqqi, tasmi' classes and ta'lim.
There will be certain time, that I can choose to be alone. Walking about Block E or sometimes SMAWP3.
There will be, if I had the chance, travelling around.


What I had learnt about travelling was, it is hard to cope with the real world.
Yes, even I can't deny it, there will be people not covering their aurah properly, people who dates, people who smoke and such such. All these people are Muslims.


And that, kept my mind occupied. Thinking.


What would I have been, if I hadn't registered to CFS?


CFS is a safe place to be. There are rules, many rules indeed.
But no one would stay at CFS forever. Neither do I.


So the very first reason I didn't blog is, I didn't know what exactly I want to write about.
One can easily write an Islamic post, people will read it insyaAllah and gain benefit for it.
If it have a good impact, then it will stay for some time. But if it don't, then people will forget.


One can easily write what happened during the day, people will read it and know the writer better perhaps.


One can easily write a story and live in a fantasy.
Not that writing stories are bad, as I write some myself. It just sometimes, if stories are being written too much, then perhaps it is just better to read some history. An Islamic history.


The second reason I didn't write any in these few days; I was occupied.


Writing sometimes takes minutes, sometimes takes hours. I don't want to be in front of my SuperKira that long specially when the oven is full and the timer is ticking.


The third reason; I was confused, really.


Believe me, when a writer is confuse, it is not good.


I am confuse, with what is happening in this world right now.
This is indeed a very personal thought.


I am focusing this part to what is happening in Malaysia right now.
Come on, Bersih 3.0 and Perhimpunan Sejuta Belia?
Come on, debates and stuffs about small matters?


Okay, I get it. It is not a small matter for you, but it is for me.


How did I see it?
In my view, in everything I did, alhamdulillah I had always been grateful I am a Muslim.
When I watch the movie sometimes about how the world is, I am grateful I am a Muslim.

I am grateful that I had the basic knowledge of Islam.
Yes, basic.


What Islam is teaching us is simple and acceptable throughout the ages.
Just imagine of all people, even if they didn't know that much, but at least know the basic and practise it in daily life, insyaAllah the Earth will be a much better place to live.


And yet what is happening?
People who didn't know keep not knowing and enjoying all the entertainment.
People who know more than basics are arguing with each other about things that shouldn't be argue.


Can you please, be simple?


I know about Syiah, Wahabiy, others that I don't want to mention.
I know things that sometimes I wish I don't know but I realise also that Allah had given be the knowledge so I accepted it.
But, I know, perfectly aware that, as a Muslim to another Muslim, we shouldn't dislike each other. We shouldn't argue some things that is tolerable. We shouldn't be pointing fingers.


All this time I didn't want to mention anything about this, not in this blog or even out loud.


But this is going too far.


Some supported Bersih, some condemned it.
Some went to Perjumpaan Belia, some criticized it.


Don't you have better things to do?
Such as pray your heart out for Syria, they are Muslims.
Such as going to somewhere and spread the words of Allah.
Such as stay at home and achieve that Baitul Muslim.


Everyone want Malaysia to be a real Islamic country.


But if you can't adjust yourself, then how can it be achieve?
If you can't take small steps first, then how would you jump to big ones?


People kept saying about how we have to preach [da'wah] to others,
but please, I am literally begging you to mind the usage of your words.


I am happy to hear verses of al-Quran.
I am glad to hear hadith.
I am excited to hear the quotes of wisdom.


But hard comments and harsh words? Laughing over someone mistakes? Even it is totally wrong, a nice, decent advice and prayers insyaAllah would be enough and far more acceptable.


And me, writing all these also are commenting. I hope it would be decent one.


I can't say I am mad, because people make mistakes and I just have to learn how to accept it.
I just can say I am disturbed and distracted.

The Prophet (peace be upon him) said: "Remember Allah during times of ease and He will remember you during times of difficulty." [Tirmidhi]

“Be not sad, surely Allah is with us.” (Qur’an 9:40)

O you who have believed, fear Allah and be with those who are true. (Surat At-Tawbah 9:119)

Allahua'lam.