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Assalamualaikum w.b.t. During previous examination, I spent a lot of my time alone. It was the last ten night of Ramadhan, it was examination week. During Ramadhan itself, my schedule had not been as usual. I didn't even remember going to Blok E as usual. There were iftar invitation everyday, or if not, I would have went to the mosque. I remembered the time during talaqqi, when we were studying The Chapter of I'tiqaf from the book at-Tanbih. But it wasn't my topic for today. It is my mothers' birthday as the matter of fact. It took me a long time to think, why parents are important in our lives? And why, we could not ever pay what they had done for us. Once I read a story, regarding a Muslim. He took care of his old mother. To cut it short and to make clear what he had done for his mother, he even took his mother performing Hajj by carrying her behind his back. And he asked Prophet Muhammad s.a.w, whether he had done enough to return back whatever ha...

Assalamualaikum w.b.t. Pada mulanya ana mendapat ilham mahu meletakkan tajuk seperti di atas, ana merasakan tiada apa yang salah. Tiada kontroversi. Hinggalah saat ana menaipnya, ana merasakan, mungkinkah... ada yang akan salah faham? Khair, sedikit penerangan insyaALLAH. Jemaah yang ana maksudkan adalah solat secara berjemaah dan bukanlah... perkara lain. Bagi yang faham maksud ana, insyaALLAH faham. Bagi yang kurang memahami, kekalkan begitu hingga tiba masanya. Kenapa “Ana tak suka jemaah?” Atau lebih spesifik lagi ana tak suka solat jemaah. Permasalahan ini bukan apa yang dialami ana sekarang. Setelah jalan tarbiyah ana lalui di UIAM, pastilah solat jemaah yang paling ana nantikan. Namun, secara jujur, permasalahan bermula seawalnya ana melangkah ke UIAM. Hakikatnya, bila ana fikir kembali, hanya satu sebab sahaja mengapa ana tidak suka solat jemaah – saf tidak rapat . Semasa ana di SAM[T]TAR, tarbiyah ana bermula dari kosong sehingga pengetah...

Assalamualaikum w.b.t. AllahuALLAH. 'Eid al-fitri is tonight, and tomorrow until the dawn. AllahuALLAH. Ramadhan had gone, and it will be waited and waited until next year. Here is some 'amal that you may practise tonight: This is from Syeikhuna, Ustaz Muhadir Bin Hj Joll: 1.Tahajjud 2.Tasbih (4 rakaat, 2 salam) 3.Solat Hajat 4.Laa ilaaha illallah 1000x, kemudian baca Allaahumma thabbitaa bi qaulith thaabit 3 x 5.Istighfar 1000x 6.Selawat 1000x 7.Yaa Hayyu Yaa Qayyum, Laa ilaaha illaa Anta 40x 8. Yaa Hayyu Yaa Qayyuum, Ahyil Quluuba Tahyaa, wa ashlih lanal a'maala fid diini wad dunyaa 18x Eid Mubarak to all. May ALLAH be with us. Allahua'lam.

Assalamualaikum w.b.t. I hadn't write anything these days. Ramadhan is leaving us, khair. Taqabbalallahu minna wa minkum, insyaAllah. This time I wanted to write about one of my biggest hardship in life. My mistake. One, but had a huge effect in my life. This is a mix post, between Malay and English. I know I didn't do it often, it is my first time actually. But some phrases I just couldn't express in English. So it just better be in Malay. Mungkin, ada yang tak mampu nak terima. Ana tak tahu. Tapi sungguh, ana mengaku kisah ini silapnya pada pihak ana. My fault, and mine alone. I'm writing in for my own reminder in the future. And to remind every and each one of us, that eventhough how hard we are trying to keep away ourselves from worldly matters, it would still effect us, and if we are not prepared, we fell into it. Ini kisah yang ana ceritakan pada satu iftar bersama adik-adik dan rakan ENGENIUS. "Hati kita umpama cawan. Jika kita ...

Assalamualaikum w.b.t. Writing based on experience, I know there will be flaws, so comments and suggestions are open for everyone. Being in IIUM, I detected few "species" of students. And that just for the Foundation Centre. This time I do not want to babble around, so I will be focusing on one target. The group of students who wanted to spread around words of Islam. Khair, obviously it is a good thing to have you around, but I realised that the same pattern keeps going on and on. And it is not good, at least for me. Because, they are people who are identically same with me; in terms of behaviour and how we think. Simple words? Well,  let just say that I was in this term: "I will not change unless I wanted to." Yes, simple ego. But then, for us to break our ego, is for you guys to lower yours. For serious, and I meant to write this in capital, but I don't like capital words. I had changed myself for a better good because those around me doesn...

Assalamualaikum w.b.t. يا ربي قد غفلنا وكلنا طمع في عفو وفي كرم وفي اعتاق وجنة مع سيد البشر ندعوك... ندعوك ربي من الأعماق Wahai Tuhanku, kami telah lalai lupa, Namun setiap orang daripada kami tetap tamakkan, Keampunan-Mu, dan sifat pemurah-Mu dan kebebasan daripada neraka-Mu, Dan juga kami tamakkan syurga, yang dimasuki bersama-sama penghulu seluruh manusia. Kami mohon pada-Mu. Mohon dengan sangat, wahai Tuhanku, Dari sudut hati kami yang paling dalam. لو كان بيننا الحبيب # لدنا القاصي والقريب  من طيبة قبل المغيب # طالباً قرب الحبيب Kalaulah Kekasih-Mu, masih berada bersama-sama kami, Akan terlunaslah segala hutang dan semakin hampirlah dengan haruman Baginda, sebelum hilangnya, rasa yang meronta-ronta untuk berada hampir dengan Kekasih-Mu. بقربه النفس تطيب # وتدعوا الله فيجيب أنوار طه لا تغيب # بلغنا لقاه يا مجيب Berada berhampiran Baginda, jiwa turut menjadi harum Dan apa jua yang kalian doakan kepada Allah, ak...

Assalamualaikum w.b.t. Sejenak di Ramadhan yang mulia. Allah memberi ujian, memberi peringatan. Hamba yang lemah. Tapi ana tahu, dan insyaAllah akan terus tahu. Betapa sukarnya, tetap ana ada peluang berkata; "Ya Allah, bantullah aku." Betapa sakitnya, orang kafir tidak akan mampu mengucapkan ayat itu. Tampar sedikit diri sendiri. Bukan fitrah yang sakit, tapi nafsu. Ajarkan nafsu itu. Nafsu yang selalu menipu. Semenjak Ramadhan tiba, ana tertanya-tanya. Kenapa dan mengapa, ana masih di Pusat Asasi UIAM? Apa yang Allah tetapkan, hingga ana masih di sini? Sedangkan istikharah yang ana lakukan, petunjuk yang ana dapat. Bukan satu, bukan dua tapi sepanjang perjalanan. Dan akhirnya, ana tahu. Sepanjang ana di sini, Allah membimbing. Dari satu talaqqi ke talaqqi yang lain. Dari usrah mendengar tajwid kepada kelas tasmi'. Dari setiausaha kepada... bekas setiausaha. Pelik, sejak seawalnya semester ana dijemput, masuk ke mesyuarat itu, mesyuarat ini. Pe...