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Assalamualaikum w.b.t.   I just bought a pair of new shoes :D And it is officially, if I'm not mistaken, the first time ever, I bought shoes with flowers on it. I usually bought sport shoes or sneakers. I wore those shoes to everywhere. But then, on graduation day last year, some of the teachers personally asked me to wear high heels. Or at least, not sport shoes. So I borrowed my sisters' heels and wore it on that day. IT WAS AWKWARD. As soon as I received my graduation slip, I took off the shoes and walked around with bare foot. I was weird, and still am. This year, I want to be more feminine . At least, I wanted people to recognise me as a girl. So I bought the shoes, my sisters said to me "It is awkward to see you wearing shoes with flower," and she gave me this weird look. As far as I know, I don't care id it is a girlie shoes or sport shoes. As long as I can wear it comfortably, it will be my Cinderella sho...

Assalamualaikum w.b.t. I'm home in Shah Alam C: Since yesterday. I have quite a journey from PJ to SA. Somehow exciting, somehow intimidating. And I was all alone. Wearing niqab and red baju kurung. I brought along three luggages. Heavy luggages. First note, do not ever bring heavy luggages if you are travelling using public transport. In the bus, it was nothing but usual. However, when I was walking from KL monorail station to KL central, I noticed that I was being followed, by a man. He stared at me, I thought he felt weird about my appearance. Then I noticed he was staring at my left hand. I was carrying a bag and on top of it was a blue dolphin plushie. On second thought, ok, he felt weird of the existence of the plushie. Yet again, he kept staring and walked besides me. Not until the last minute I realised I was holding my phone with the same hand. Is it -- he was aiming to snatch my belongings? (MasyaAllah, dah bersangka buruk) I stopped. ...

Assalamualaikum w.b.t. Abah just came back from Japan. I got a new watch :) Eventhough I usually doesn't wear anything on my wrist, I think I can spare a space for a white-watch. Today is officially the starting of the 10 last nights of Ramadhan. And one of it is LailatulQadr. Oh Allah, please give us, the ummah of prophet Muhammad p.b.u.h, the barakah of LailatulQadr. The night that is better than 1000 nights. http://al-fanshuri.blogspot.com/2011/08/lailatul-qadar-mungkin-ini-peluang.html

Assalamualaikum w.b.t. I AM FRESH C: After drinking a bottle of Ice Lemon Tea, and murmuring things at my meeting with the committees, and humiliating myself, I declare, my stress is less. So, hum, "kahwin awal"? Bakpo nak kawe awal2 ni~? Haha. Kidding. It's a good thing, you know. But it is not easy. Especially for me. To those who knows my story, you know my storyline. To those who don't, believe me, I am trying hard enough to forget. It is not easy to like someone who likes you, and it is not easy to be like by someone you like. AND it is not easy to pretend to like someone that likes you. I really wish, somehow, there is, someone, that knows who I am accidentally. That when I smile, he smile, when I create phrases, he will be able to continue it, when I am sad, he'll give me Ice Lemon Tea. And perhaps, if I am lucky enough, that particular person will always be by my side, even without me knowing about it. I ha...

Assalamualaikum w.b.t I-am-a-very-pathetic-person. For-serious. I sacrificed my time a lot to do works and study and yet, I am not smart enough. And now, I might have to sacrifice more than time. Guess. If you still don't get it. Stop. I'm wasting your time. Sighhh. Right, lets move on. Mid sem was over. And I got my marks for Maths. Oh pleaseee, the whole world knows that I hate Maths since, well, forever. I believe it started from Standard 6. So my mark is a so-so. However, I'm grateful, I am. But then, my sister got an A for her Add Maths recently. My brothers got high marks in Maths and well, my elder sister is studying Maths at UiTM. I just can't understand why. Why must I be the one who struggle with Maths? But -- then, Alhamdulillah, I am okay with other subjects. Move on yet again, ENGENIUS. There's an event in 3 weeks time, making me busier than ever. It's not bothering me but other things did. Things like...