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Assalamualaikum w.b.t. This is somewhat, contradict to Reasons: Why People Should Have Blog? I have been in the semester break for quite a while right now. Having to work, baking actually for several days in a row. Helped ami with hers and stumbling around here and there in my house. I had, really, searching for my way how to survive in real world. In CFS, of course, I had my own schedule. I had my goal of what to do every day. There will be usual classes, talaqqi, tasmi' classes and ta'lim. There will be certain time, that I can choose to be alone. Walking about Block E or sometimes SMAWP3. There will be, if I had the chance, travelling around. What I had learnt about travelling was, it is hard to cope with the real world. Yes, even I can't deny it, there will be people not covering their aurah properly, people who dates, people who smoke and such such. All these people are Muslims. And that, kept my mind occupied. Thinking. What would I have been, if ...

Assalamualaikum w.b.t I woke up, with the mind set of going to Masjid al-Mukarramah. There will be a Kuliyyah by Syeikh Fahmi Zamzam an-Nadwi al-Maliki. I missed the previous one for a reason. It will be my third time attending the Kuliyyah, but the fourth time going to the mosque. Lingering around the house, and ami offered a ride to the bus stop. She was in a rush, I was in a rush. And not until I arrived at the bus stop that I realizes, I didn't bring my Quran. I texted ami but the bus had arrived. Never I travel without my Quran. Looking at the bus, looking at my wallet and the time. I have my small Yasin and the bus was there. I stepped into it and there goes the bus. Certainly I was heart broken, but I think it shall remind me every moment from now on, to hold to my Quran. The one I always carry around was given by beloved Fatin Husna binti Hamka. In the bus, I sat besides a fair lady, who is a Muslim. Her name; Zaharah. She is currently wo...

Assalamualaikum w.b.t. This post, is regarding my journey to Egypt. It is hard, khair. But there are reasons. I am sorry, for I have kept it as a secret for a long time. Yes, I know that some of you had known, but many, doesn't. Specially those from my own neighbourhood, those from my previous schools. The first to know was my roommate, then 190 sisters, then my ENGENIUS family and thus my the remainder of 190 and 194. So there was none except one from Alam Megah who knows, except for the teachers I met when I came to school regarding the certificates and so on. The main reason I took my time to tell each and every one of you is the same reason why I haven't been in CFS almost every weekends for the whole semester. I was occupied by the paper-works that must be done. I was doing it alhamdulillah with a friend who understand, and the thing was, it was all on me. The first year fee, the airplane ticket, the rent for the house and everythi...

Assalamualaikum w.b.t. Snapshots, of my memories. One. While walking in front of IRKHS Building. Me: "Assalamualaikum." Her: *blank* Me: *smile* and left. Her to her friend: "Is that Amirah Hazwani?" Her friend: *nod* and "Uhuh." Her: "Oh, never seen her without niqab before~ I was shocked." Two. During the "banning" of niqab. "Sis, this is my first time that I see your face." -message- Three. Days before exam. Sir: "Do your revision at least three times." The night before exam.  *Open the book for the first time* Four. After every summarization of each Physics chapter. Madam: "Physics is simple~" During exam. *Blank* Five. During BTQ. Me: "If I speak to fast, then please raise up your hand or I will assume that you understand everything that I said." *speakspeakspeak* *saw team mates gave a sign to slow down* Me: "But they didn't raise up their h...

Assalamualaikum w.b.t. Islam itu mudah. Muzik itu indah. Pilihan, masing-masing. Seni kata dari:  http://iffah-hidayah-rejab.blogspot.com/2011/03/tholama-asyku-ghoromi.html طالما اشكو غرامى يا نور الوجود وانادى يا تهامى يا معدن الجود Lama sudah aku menanggung rindu; Wahai cahaya alam yang indah, Serta aku menyeru, Wahai Nabi s.a.w, Wahai punca ilmu yang pemurah. منيتى اقصى مرامى احظى بالشهود وارى باب السلام يا زاكى الجدود Impianku setinggi-tinggi cita-cita; Moga diberikan tuah dapat melihatmu; Juga melihat Bab al Salam (di Masjid Nabawi); Wahai sesuci-suci insan. . يا طراز الكون انى عاشق مستهام مغرم والمدح فنى يا بدر التمام Wahai hiasan dunia ini, Aku amat cinta dan rindu padamu; Hanya pujian menjadi persembahanku; Wahai bulan mengambang penuh. اصرف اعراضا عنّي اصناني الغرام فيك قد احسنت ظنّي يا سامى العهود Jauhkanlah segala penghalangku daripadamu; Yang kupendam hanya kerinduan terhadapmu...

Assalamualaikum w.b.t. Semalam, ana kembali ke Shah Alam. Esok, insyaAllah ana kembali ke CFS IIUM. Hari ini, ana mendapat berita, permohonan pembiayaan ana tidak berjaya. Khair, ana usaha. Meniti hari-hari terakhir di Taman Ilmu dan Budi tercinta, ana sering memandang langit. Satu malam, ketika ana sedang bersama saat terakhir mengulangkaji bersama mentee, Allah memberikan ilham ana memberi sepatah dua kata. "Kalau ana nak baca al-Quran 40 kali, ana lihat langit." Sungguhpun sering berbuat begitu, tapi ana tidak pernah meluahkan. Tidak ana katakan, tidak pula berniat menyimpan. Hinggalah sekarang ana teringat kata-kata sendiri. Ana melihat langit. Dan suatu ketika Allah melintaskan bait-bait ayat di fikiran ana. Adakah langit itu tahu, akan manusia yang memuji kecantikannya? Sedangkan ia menyibukkan diri mengingati Allah. Ana jatuhkan pandangan, memandang padang CFS yang menghijau. Adakah rumput itu tahu, akan manusia yang tenang melihat kehija...